well its been a while since ive written in here ... been kinda blah lately ... and working way to much ... i really need a new job .... but thats really nothing new ...
ive been seriously thinking about leaving this place and starting over somewhere else ... its really hard to pick up and leave where u grew up ... my friends r here that r really more like family .... and of coarse my family is here as well ... but im starting to realize that my life has gone no where these past 5 years and if i dont do something its going to stay this way ...
so im working on fixing my life and actually getting a life instead of just exsisting ...
so we shall see ... really thinking about new york city ... its somewhere i have always wanted to live and feel if i dont go i will regrete it someday .... even if i go and hate it at least i tried ... guess we shall see
still single which really doesnt help things either .... i need to love someone .... sex is good and all but i really need more at this point in life .... so i guess that would be another plus if i move ... more options then i have right now in this small town ...
ive been seriously thinking about leaving this place and starting over somewhere else ... its really hard to pick up and leave where u grew up ... my friends r here that r really more like family .... and of coarse my family is here as well ... but im starting to realize that my life has gone no where these past 5 years and if i dont do something its going to stay this way ...
so im working on fixing my life and actually getting a life instead of just exsisting ...
so we shall see ... really thinking about new york city ... its somewhere i have always wanted to live and feel if i dont go i will regrete it someday .... even if i go and hate it at least i tried ... guess we shall see
still single which really doesnt help things either .... i need to love someone .... sex is good and all but i really need more at this point in life .... so i guess that would be another plus if i move ... more options then i have right now in this small town ...
VIEW 9 of 9 COMMENTS
It had been a while since I came to Suicide Girls and I hadn't seen your comment. So thank you
About your entry, moving from your home is really hard, but in a way, it's the best thing you can do in your life. It helps you appreciate again this place you grew up in. Sometimes you need to be far away from something in order to realise how important it is for you.
Besides, if you want a new job, a new start, a new love, you should try this in a new place. You can always come back if you want to.
I'm wishing you all the best luck possible.