Well, Saturday I did a pit of a comedy competition. I knew as soon as it started that i was going to die up on stage. It didn't help the hall was so rammed we had to wait in the bar downstairs before we went on (so no chance to assess the audience and work a approach).
Great comedy should be universal, even abstract comedy. So i can't blame the audience, but, i think, it would have been a hard gig for any amateur alternative comic.
before i went on i was standing on the stairs, the only place left, and thought to myself: 'you know, fuck this. I could just go'. I'm proud I had the balls to stay, and get up, even if i died for five minutes. I proved to myself i can muster the divine power of 'fuck it'.
All the comics that snubbed me are being noted, dudes can get fucked when i move up past 'em. Still, i did meet some super cool guys, in time they will be rewarded with cake.
Its a difficult time for me right now.
I'm trying to write comedy that's a little more universal. It means making a clearer underlying theme, more defined twists, simpler language in places, but all without sacrificing my voice. It's a head ache trying to find the balance. Plus It makes writing harder as i'm having to turn a more clinical eye on my writing, which can make you start to doubt yourself. especially when your trying to be funny. Plus, my home girl at Starbucks had to tell me i'd drunk all the chai today. she still smiled.
essentially I've felt like this:
Lucky Excel came to cheer a brother up:
I've decided, that i can do this though, and that to get through I'm simply going to write sets with clearer driving logic, and bigger twists, whilst not worrying too much.
Ive had a break the last couple of days, re-designing my design portfolio, and doing some work for a friend. I have a web design interview at Sky Friday which I'm trying not to dwell on too much, as getting that would set me up for a trip to see my buddies in Canada, go snowboarding, and most importantly get me some fresh kicks. But, i'll wait and see. My updated portfolio should help me get some more swish design roles.
No.
But dude, I totally should.