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olla,

well, i went for a job interview at Ministry of Sound which was a cool spot. The throbbing base tunes and huge black gated warehouse reminded me of Nathan Barley in a good way. The thing is though, i didn't 'feel' the place, and i'm all about the gut instinct on jobs. I have a couple weeks of contract work however so i'll do that.

Tomorrow i have my second night class which will involve me performing a comedy rant. It should be interesting as i was never a drama kid, and last week i found myself breathing between the fear and doing things i never thought i would/could do (upside down solo synchronized swimming on a desk). I'm only a little worried as i have a very risky sense of comedy and i don't want to embarrass myself.

I saw a good amigo tonight who split with his long term x at the same time as me and has just got back together with her, which was odd. I felt sad and jealous! he deserves better then to be the fall back man, but at the same time i still miss my x like crazy. ah well. He told me he's not sure on things until they're together, and i can understand that, but I'm starting to realise that we as people have to believe in an abundance of love! if you think theirs only 'the one' then you create a very small high pressure reality for yourself.

Well i have music to mix and story's to write so i'm off.

PS i watched Neil Gaiman's star dust last night and thought it was great.

ADDITION:

my flat mate and buddy (some of you know) is taking his break up really hard. his now x will not end it decisively (she's talking about a month break..maybe) so he's in limbo and having to deal with all the nasty round about thoughts. I've been having lots of heart to hearts with him lately and today, for the first time, i was tougher saying that maybe it wasn't all he thought it was if she wants to end it and now is treating him so badly. I'm no councilor but i hope I'm helping and that he feels a little better soon.
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man, you girls cut us boys up bad!