volkov

it's been so odd of late. It seemed like my life was in slow motion to the point of standing still the whole year that I was in Cuba, it's like I was taken completly out of my timeline.... then I came back and spent a few months at play, traveling and life continued it's surreality...then I finally came back to my Life as I Know It...and it was like "ok...while you were gone, this is what happened..." and now I feel slammed. like life is speeding along and I am trying to play catch up. a lot of it is money crap. I don't like to worry about money and I don't freak out over how much I have and don't have, but it's sorta neccessery...
then all the decisions that have to be made about The Rest Of My Life...school and whatnot...wether to move to Austin and finish school for free and get a degree to get a job in the military or gov't or for some international company I don't respect....or just continue on with my slacker ways....maybe get my massage thereapy liscence again and just go along with that....move to Seattle and just try to be happy for a while.....I dunno...this isn't so much a problem, but it...among other things, is what keeps me up at nights.
but I'll tell you what. I am chatting with Pyroerotica and it's a good thing. she really is a good friend...especially for having met me only briefly. and again I am wondering how it is that so many people I like enough to actually BE friends with (not an easy feat believe me) live up in that part of the universe....... but I ponder so much it makes me ponderous.

and right now on my headphones: "It's Never Enough" by The Cure......... loverly.