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Monday Dec 01, 2008

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What am I going to do with my life? Someone please tell me, because I sure as hell don't know where I'm going. It seems as every intentional step forwards is two steps backwards.

It's not that I'm doing bad with money (though things aren't where I'd like them to be)

I'm in a job that I don't much mind. Really, I love the job, it's just a lot of the people there and the catty politics that decide your fate as opposed to hard work and dedication.

I just feel at a standstill.

What am I supposed to do for the rest of my life. I know what I would do if I could, but I feel stuck. I think I'm being dragged down. I can't tell what is the anchor that is holding my feet.

I want so much more than I have, and not just monetarily or materialistically, but I want more freedom, more time to think, more time to BREATHE. I want endless options openly available to me at all times. I want to stop feeling like I'm 40 and making every decision based on work, education, health insurance, and taking the smart path rather than what makes me absolutely happy, and start feeling 21 going on 22 and enjoy my one and only life like I am supposed to!

I am posing this question to all who read this, because I cannot tell what I am doing wrong. Those who know me, tell me. What is holding me down? What am I supposed to be doing, because at this point I am drawing a blank. I know the things I want to do, but they seem out of my grasp, and the only path is the practical one. I'm having a huge personal identity crisis, and I'm really not all that sure what to do about it.








Help?





by the way, I really can't seem to figure out this new sg layout. It's confusing.
schiavona:
Hate the new layout. Sadly, I'm getting used to it.

What is it you'd like to do? Do you know of a dream-job that you'd love to have?

I wish I had some answers for you on this count. My new job is making me happy, it's not the most money I've ever made, but working for a non-profit just feels better. For most of us, just having a nice place to work is about all we could dream of. A few lucky souls (like K_Rex) have always known what they want to do, and are actually doing it and, usually, loving it. I know I floundered around a lot trying to find something that I was happy doing.

So, first thing is do you know of a job that you would love to have? if so, then it's a matter of deciding how to get there. if not, then you have to make a list of things you love to do and those you don't. See if there's any job opportunities there. A career counselor might be able to help point you in the direction, but that of course requires money to see one.

kiss kiss
Dec 2, 2008

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