I think I understand a lot more about circles these days. Not the mathematical kind... How life is one big circle. The past continually repeats itself and makes itself apparant no matter how hard you try to change and avoid all your previous mistakes.
I said I was going to make something of myself this year, by now I'd have an awesome job, my own place, and all that good on paper shit, but now I'm looking back and I'm exactly where I was a year ago. Same job, same worries, same EVERYTHING. Just a year older. Still missing the same old people, and the people I want to get away from just keep showing back up. I am getting more and more worried that I may have settled for less. If I was growing, doing something, shouldn't SOMETHING be different?
I am very worried about this.
I said I was going to make something of myself this year, by now I'd have an awesome job, my own place, and all that good on paper shit, but now I'm looking back and I'm exactly where I was a year ago. Same job, same worries, same EVERYTHING. Just a year older. Still missing the same old people, and the people I want to get away from just keep showing back up. I am getting more and more worried that I may have settled for less. If I was growing, doing something, shouldn't SOMETHING be different?
I am very worried about this.
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I understand how you feel. it will be okay.