Sometimes I think I need new hobbies.
I don't know if Japan numbed my mind or if I am just a boring person but I get caught in ruts of eating the same things, and doing the same things and I find it difficult to expand my interests. I think boys and graphic design were like my hobbies, but the thing about graphic design is it is also my job. And its really hard when your biggest hobby is also your job. I find myself doing it all the time so I feel like I am always working. I do yoga, I read, yes, but when it comes to being this amazing artist who makes art for art sake, I just don't do it. I don't make time for it. I don't ride bikes, or playing any instruments... I don't really take photos too often it feels like a chore. I really just spend a lot of time eating sushi, doing yoga, going on dates, reading and doing design and traveling. I mean its definitely a wonderful life, but I struggle sometimes for small talk. Like things that would make me Truly interesting.
When it comes to being able to sit across from someone and talk about interesting things, I could talk about movies and books but the things I think would make me super interesting I feel lIke I am lacking. I mean I guess I cook, but how much can you talk about reading, yoga, cooking etc. So I find myself analyzing and talking about relationship, sex, dates, and design, maybe music, maybe art stuff, maybe tokyo but the stuff that would make me Brilliant i feel like I'd rather lay around in bed till 2pm and watch an episode of "Breaking Bad" then eventually make it to a coffee shop to design, instead of going out and doing something exciting.... Like going to the river, or camping, or whatever.
Ugh!
Then when I think about doing something for artsake, i think to myself what would I even want to say? What inspires me? I feel so numb sometimes, and uninspired. If I have a client, its no problem. I think my problem is I need inspiration. I need something to make people think WOW you are BRILLIANT!
I want to be brilliant and amazing. I feel like I have all of the components and this lazy side that makes me just constantly cuddle up with my Mac and waste time!
I don't know if Japan numbed my mind or if I am just a boring person but I get caught in ruts of eating the same things, and doing the same things and I find it difficult to expand my interests. I think boys and graphic design were like my hobbies, but the thing about graphic design is it is also my job. And its really hard when your biggest hobby is also your job. I find myself doing it all the time so I feel like I am always working. I do yoga, I read, yes, but when it comes to being this amazing artist who makes art for art sake, I just don't do it. I don't make time for it. I don't ride bikes, or playing any instruments... I don't really take photos too often it feels like a chore. I really just spend a lot of time eating sushi, doing yoga, going on dates, reading and doing design and traveling. I mean its definitely a wonderful life, but I struggle sometimes for small talk. Like things that would make me Truly interesting.
When it comes to being able to sit across from someone and talk about interesting things, I could talk about movies and books but the things I think would make me super interesting I feel lIke I am lacking. I mean I guess I cook, but how much can you talk about reading, yoga, cooking etc. So I find myself analyzing and talking about relationship, sex, dates, and design, maybe music, maybe art stuff, maybe tokyo but the stuff that would make me Brilliant i feel like I'd rather lay around in bed till 2pm and watch an episode of "Breaking Bad" then eventually make it to a coffee shop to design, instead of going out and doing something exciting.... Like going to the river, or camping, or whatever.
Ugh!
Then when I think about doing something for artsake, i think to myself what would I even want to say? What inspires me? I feel so numb sometimes, and uninspired. If I have a client, its no problem. I think my problem is I need inspiration. I need something to make people think WOW you are BRILLIANT!
I want to be brilliant and amazing. I feel like I have all of the components and this lazy side that makes me just constantly cuddle up with my Mac and waste time!
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