Hey,
This is my first journal entry ever! I would like to say that I am really excited to keep an online journal... I need a way to vent all my crazy experiences, my crazy thoughts, my crazy feelings.... my fucked up crazy neurotic thought processes.....And my ability to be the most BOY CRAZY girl on the planet.
Let me see if i can give you an idea of what my day consists of
10am- wake up prolly from a dream about a hot boy
12pm- have lunch with my friend melody talk about boy drama
1-4pm go to school (while studying hot boys in class)
5-11pm get paid to dominate men on the internet, while getting to know cute local boys on AIM
Midnight- Go out to the bars with ex boyfriend, or hang out with friends and bullshit, or go to bed, design, surf the web, watch a movie, or go on a date
Weekends: kick it with hot boys, kiss them, cuddle, go to parties, be BOOOOOY crazy...
Being so boy crazy is something that I have been like since i was in Kindergarten. I remember being five years old, and spying on the high school boys across the street, and being in 'love' with my little friends older brother. at the age of FIVE! At the same age, I used to run around the yard naked in hopes that the paper boy would see me. (i shit you not) So it all makes sense to why I do what I do for a living.
But the truth about being so boy crazy is that it is really quite emotionally draining to be into something so ungratifying at times. I have been in love before. Three times to be exact. I had one 2.5 year relationship, a 1.5 year relationship, and an 11 mo. relationship I have been in lots of little relationships. I find relationships very draining. I am a pisces, so my tendency to put myself 110 percent into a relationship doesn't leave a whole lot of time and energy for myself. This is frusterating! I would like to experience a guy whose problems don't become my problems, but from what I learned everyone has baggage and it's unavoidable. So to feed the urge of having boys in my life w/o a relationship, I date with no strings like there is no tomorrow.
I definitely think have become quite the infatuation junkie. I love the beginning feelings of the first kiss, the first naked makeout session.. and I usually don't take it to sex unless I want sex. I normally only want sex if I have been dating them for at least a month or so and they are on their way to becoming a boyfriend. I do have sex buddies if I need some un-emotional sex, but that is only if my vibrator is broken or if I am desperately feening for oral sex. I don't allow myself to be pressured for sex by a guy. Which is empowering.....since in my past I didn't know how to deal with that pressure. (I think being a dominatrix and being fed up with being naturally submissive has something to do with it)
Ah well even in my dorkiest forms, I guess you know a little bit more about me. I know i am gonna read this journal entry a month from now and just crack up laughing....
Mistress Violet
This is my first journal entry ever! I would like to say that I am really excited to keep an online journal... I need a way to vent all my crazy experiences, my crazy thoughts, my crazy feelings.... my fucked up crazy neurotic thought processes.....And my ability to be the most BOY CRAZY girl on the planet.
Let me see if i can give you an idea of what my day consists of
10am- wake up prolly from a dream about a hot boy
12pm- have lunch with my friend melody talk about boy drama
1-4pm go to school (while studying hot boys in class)
5-11pm get paid to dominate men on the internet, while getting to know cute local boys on AIM
Midnight- Go out to the bars with ex boyfriend, or hang out with friends and bullshit, or go to bed, design, surf the web, watch a movie, or go on a date
Weekends: kick it with hot boys, kiss them, cuddle, go to parties, be BOOOOOY crazy...
Being so boy crazy is something that I have been like since i was in Kindergarten. I remember being five years old, and spying on the high school boys across the street, and being in 'love' with my little friends older brother. at the age of FIVE! At the same age, I used to run around the yard naked in hopes that the paper boy would see me. (i shit you not) So it all makes sense to why I do what I do for a living.
But the truth about being so boy crazy is that it is really quite emotionally draining to be into something so ungratifying at times. I have been in love before. Three times to be exact. I had one 2.5 year relationship, a 1.5 year relationship, and an 11 mo. relationship I have been in lots of little relationships. I find relationships very draining. I am a pisces, so my tendency to put myself 110 percent into a relationship doesn't leave a whole lot of time and energy for myself. This is frusterating! I would like to experience a guy whose problems don't become my problems, but from what I learned everyone has baggage and it's unavoidable. So to feed the urge of having boys in my life w/o a relationship, I date with no strings like there is no tomorrow.
I definitely think have become quite the infatuation junkie. I love the beginning feelings of the first kiss, the first naked makeout session.. and I usually don't take it to sex unless I want sex. I normally only want sex if I have been dating them for at least a month or so and they are on their way to becoming a boyfriend. I do have sex buddies if I need some un-emotional sex, but that is only if my vibrator is broken or if I am desperately feening for oral sex. I don't allow myself to be pressured for sex by a guy. Which is empowering.....since in my past I didn't know how to deal with that pressure. (I think being a dominatrix and being fed up with being naturally submissive has something to do with it)
Ah well even in my dorkiest forms, I guess you know a little bit more about me. I know i am gonna read this journal entry a month from now and just crack up laughing....
Mistress Violet
Of course, I'm just as girl crazy! I think that makes me an official nymphomaniac...