Went out for like one hour last night and came home miserable as expected. Except there was a message from dude on my computer. 
We talked for about an hour and then I went to see him. We talked and cuddled each other all night and have agreed to take things slow and try to work things out. We're not going to jump back into...
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We talked for about an hour and then I went to see him. We talked and cuddled each other all night and have agreed to take things slow and try to work things out. We're not going to jump back into...
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ciel:
hehe 
user304975207:
Good good good 
Bawling again. Karla calls me 50 times a day to bitch about her ex bf, and I don't want to hear it anymore since she won't listen to me and my problems.
I don't want to go out tonight, I don't want to get drunk in public, I don't want to be in any more pain than I already am, and I don't want to...
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I don't want to go out tonight, I don't want to get drunk in public, I don't want to be in any more pain than I already am, and I don't want to...
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tadzi:
i think if karla bitches to you but wont let you reciprocate, you should tell karla to fuck off.
instarsia:
dude. i've TOTALLY been there
i feel for ya.
i feel for ya.
Day 13.
Today would have been our one year anniversary. I met him one year ago today and totally fell for him. Spent the whole weekend with him. First song we ever kissed (sober) to was GG Allin & the Jabbers. I wish it didn't hurt. I miss him so much. I woke up this morning having a sex dream about him...don't know if I...
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Today would have been our one year anniversary. I met him one year ago today and totally fell for him. Spent the whole weekend with him. First song we ever kissed (sober) to was GG Allin & the Jabbers. I wish it didn't hurt. I miss him so much. I woke up this morning having a sex dream about him...don't know if I...
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me1:
Thank you for accepting. I have read some of your posts and you seem quite interseting.
Hope uhave a kick ass time at the party tonight.
Thanks for the prayers, we can all use that. I will keep you in mine.
Hope uhave a kick ass time at the party tonight.
Thanks for the prayers, we can all use that. I will keep you in mine.
user304975207:
You're still in my thoughts. Still hoping things work out.
I want to see your ink!!!! Have fun at the party tonight. *HUGS*
I want to see your ink!!!! Have fun at the party tonight. *HUGS*
Why can I not escape from him in my dreams?
This is hurting too much. Wtf do I do?
At least I get inked today. Maybe that will help. I'll be so close to him though, like 20 minutes from his house
I wish he would see me. God help me be strong. I miss him so fucking much, and I want my puppy.
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This is hurting too much. Wtf do I do?
At least I get inked today. Maybe that will help. I'll be so close to him though, like 20 minutes from his house
I wish he would see me. God help me be strong. I miss him so fucking much, and I want my puppy.
I...
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teh_asspope:
I'm so sorry and I know how you feel. I really do. If I wasn't 2,000 miles away, I'd say sleep on my couch right now. No cooking needed.
timtoxic:
You can stay with me anytime. Don't worry about cooking or cleaning, Just plenty of hugs and I would be happy to comfort you. 
2 weeks.
May 27.
He says we can talk about everyday shit, but if I bring up our relationship he will block me. He said he is sorry for being blunt and mean, but he being selfish right now and looking out for himself. I said that is fine. I told him I think we will work things out, and right now we need to...
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May 27.
He says we can talk about everyday shit, but if I bring up our relationship he will block me. He said he is sorry for being blunt and mean, but he being selfish right now and looking out for himself. I said that is fine. I told him I think we will work things out, and right now we need to...
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garbage19:
bob esponja
korbendallas:
*hugs* 
anytime
anytimeI am drained, exhausted, and in dire need of a hug.
I wish dude would call...I suppose if I get no contact from him tonight I will just go get my tattoo finished alone tomorrow.
I can only hope he is missing me and realizing what he is throwing away. I would do anything for a hug from him right now.
I wish dude would call...I suppose if I get no contact from him tonight I will just go get my tattoo finished alone tomorrow.
I can only hope he is missing me and realizing what he is throwing away.
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thescottness:
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if he doesn't realize it, then he isn't worth a hug anyway.
... plus then I have an excuse to try out my crazy voodoo magic on him.
if he doesn't realize it, then he isn't worth a hug anyway.
... plus then I have an excuse to try out my crazy voodoo magic on him.
randie:
I know I'm not him ......but......*hugs*
I had an awful dream about my mother last night.
I dreamed she became a preschool teacher and my family and the families of the children she was teaching were throwing a huge party to celebrate her first week of class. Everyone was having a wonderful time and eating and drinking and no one seemed to care she had no degree or experience. I began...
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I dreamed she became a preschool teacher and my family and the families of the children she was teaching were throwing a huge party to celebrate her first week of class. Everyone was having a wonderful time and eating and drinking and no one seemed to care she had no degree or experience. I began...
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i am drunk.
my psychic told me to call nick today, so i did. he said he might go with me on friday to get my tattoo finished, but his brother wanted him to go rally racing- a valid excuse. my psychic says there is a 70% chance he will go with me.
i miss him so much. i am going to bed now and...
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my psychic told me to call nick today, so i did. he said he might go with me on friday to get my tattoo finished, but his brother wanted him to go rally racing- a valid excuse. my psychic says there is a 70% chance he will go with me.
i miss him so much. i am going to bed now and...
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garbage19:
hey, i hope the offer that was on the table tonite is still out there for another time. 
broadwaybee:
My 2c: Stay away from him.
More dreams about Nick. And that my stuffed animals came to life and tried to kill me. I woke up and rolled over to tell him not to go into the den, but he wasn't there obviously.
Today I am going to try to go to the gym, then go to the Getty, Melrose, and Santa Monica with Karla. I have new purple stiletto heels...
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Today I am going to try to go to the gym, then go to the Getty, Melrose, and Santa Monica with Karla. I have new purple stiletto heels...
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conqueringking:
You should leave them at the local gym or something. I find a lot of people dont work out because they don't know how. I'll send all of the postive I can spare your way.
user304975207:
Ill keep you in my thoughts. Hope you get through this quickly *hugs*
i now own pants that fit my ass. and i treated myself to frankie b.'s (but they were half off so i don't feel so bad)
i also am now the proud owner of some of the d'bohemia mac line. who cares if i never pay my credit card off? i sure don't. debt is a fact of life.
i'm thinking about getting acrylics and...
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i also am now the proud owner of some of the d'bohemia mac line. who cares if i never pay my credit card off? i sure don't. debt is a fact of life.
i'm thinking about getting acrylics and...
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carryavengeance:
i'm doing good, but i wish you were doing better...we don't like sad journal entries
you'll make it through this...i know you are strong enough to get over him...it's just gonna take some time...it always helps me to get more angry than sad (like gets pissed at him for the shit he's done to you...everything about him that pisses you off bring it out) THEN GO SMASH SOMETHING HUGE! car junkyards are really nice if you own a hammer but dont forget at least a pair of glasses to protect your eyes
you'll make it through this...i know you are strong enough to get over him...it's just gonna take some time...it always helps me to get more angry than sad (like gets pissed at him for the shit he's done to you...everything about him that pisses you off bring it out) THEN GO SMASH SOMETHING HUGE! car junkyards are really nice if you own a hammer
but dont forget at least a pair of glasses to protect your eyes