Good news and bad news.
Good news first:
No jail, my fines were waived, and as long as I stay in counseling, go to anger management classes for a year, and continue seeing my medical doctor for the next 3 years while I'm on probation I'll be fine. Also I have no probation officer, I just have to be good. No problem boss.
Bad news:
I'm never supposed to see Nick again.
...
Adam pointed out to me this morning that there really is no way for them to monitor that, and as long as we don't have any altercations involving the law and such then there really is no problem, and I'm pretty sure we're past that stage in our relationship. So I'm going to continue seeing him anyway. I just don't know if I should tell Nick about it. I mean, it won't affect him in any way should something happen...he just won't see me anymore. I don't know what to do. I don't know if I should tell him, or if I should do exactly as the courts say and cut off all contact with him? Things have been going so well, we've both agreed we're in this for the long haul, and I love him. I've managed to stop crying for now because I am so tired and my head is spinning, but christ. Can you imagine someone telling you oh hey, you can never see the person you love ever again? It's the most awful feeling ever. I totally broke down in court.
I wonder if I'd taken the jail time if that wouldn't have been imposed. But Adam also told me that staying out of jail is the best course of action I could've taken.
I just wish none of this had ever happened. And I don't want to give up this relationship.
I am so fucking confused.
Input please.
I'm going to go take a long nap now, then study, and then try to drag my depressed ass to the gym. I just want to lay in bed and cry today. Fuck.
But it could have been worse. It could have been a lot worse.
I just have to keep telling myself that.
I'm gonna keep seeing him, and I think I might not say anything to him about it because in the event that something did happen, he wouldn't be affected in the slightest. Maybe I'll gloss over it. I don't know. I'm going to bed now.
P.S. 5:45- I told him.
violentlyalive: alright well i'm glad you're cool with it
pumkinskins: word
violentlyalive: :-) i was actually scared to tell you fucker
pumkinskins: i would be too
violentlyalive: well the cool thing is now we can have dirty outlaw sex
pumkinskins: haha
Good news first:
No jail, my fines were waived, and as long as I stay in counseling, go to anger management classes for a year, and continue seeing my medical doctor for the next 3 years while I'm on probation I'll be fine. Also I have no probation officer, I just have to be good. No problem boss.
Bad news:
I'm never supposed to see Nick again.
...
Adam pointed out to me this morning that there really is no way for them to monitor that, and as long as we don't have any altercations involving the law and such then there really is no problem, and I'm pretty sure we're past that stage in our relationship. So I'm going to continue seeing him anyway. I just don't know if I should tell Nick about it. I mean, it won't affect him in any way should something happen...he just won't see me anymore. I don't know what to do. I don't know if I should tell him, or if I should do exactly as the courts say and cut off all contact with him? Things have been going so well, we've both agreed we're in this for the long haul, and I love him. I've managed to stop crying for now because I am so tired and my head is spinning, but christ. Can you imagine someone telling you oh hey, you can never see the person you love ever again? It's the most awful feeling ever. I totally broke down in court.
I wonder if I'd taken the jail time if that wouldn't have been imposed. But Adam also told me that staying out of jail is the best course of action I could've taken.
I just wish none of this had ever happened. And I don't want to give up this relationship.
I am so fucking confused.
Input please.
I'm going to go take a long nap now, then study, and then try to drag my depressed ass to the gym. I just want to lay in bed and cry today. Fuck.
But it could have been worse. It could have been a lot worse.
I just have to keep telling myself that.
I'm gonna keep seeing him, and I think I might not say anything to him about it because in the event that something did happen, he wouldn't be affected in the slightest. Maybe I'll gloss over it. I don't know. I'm going to bed now.
P.S. 5:45- I told him.
violentlyalive: alright well i'm glad you're cool with it
pumkinskins: word
violentlyalive: :-) i was actually scared to tell you fucker
pumkinskins: i would be too
violentlyalive: well the cool thing is now we can have dirty outlaw sex
pumkinskins: haha
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tadzi:
i think youre obligated to tell him, and really i think it would be foolish to push this. dont do anything that is going to jeopardize your situation. you got lucky. keep it that way.
vim:
dirty outlaw sex is the COOLEST!!
