Oh man, I feel even more craptastic today. No gym for me, which really makes me upset since I was doing so well. Ai yi yi. On the plus side I've lost 2 pounds, but I'd rather be able to go to the gym and be productive.
Today's activities include:
Cleaning off my bed, it's covered in clothes
Doing laundry again, I have no socks...
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Today's activities include:
Cleaning off my bed, it's covered in clothes
Doing laundry again, I have no socks...
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He's being way nicer. We'll see how long this lasts.
I am incredibly sick right now. My body hurts, i'm coughing, sore throat, sneezing, dizzy, and overall feeling like shit.
I guess in conjunction with everything that happened in the last week (overworking my body at the gym- I guess 3 times a day is a bit excessive, not eating enough, getting assaulted, and being...
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I am incredibly sick right now. My body hurts, i'm coughing, sore throat, sneezing, dizzy, and overall feeling like shit.
I guess in conjunction with everything that happened in the last week (overworking my body at the gym- I guess 3 times a day is a bit excessive, not eating enough, getting assaulted, and being...
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suzy_kabloozy:
Oh, baby girl ... I was reading your last couple posts. Fuckin' dudes, man! I'm sure you deserve so much better. I only seem to date emotionally unavailable men. Don't know what the attraction is, but I guess I like a challenge. They never get better, though. They just stay asses until you can't stand them any more and leave ... and then they stalk you, because they *love* you, and now you are a lousy bitch because they thought you were *different* and all that sick shit.
Being sick is probably a blessing. You need the rest!
{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}
Love,
Suzy
Being sick is probably a blessing. You need the rest!
{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}
Love,
Suzy
eazy:
Man o man. Don't get me started. Please find a way to move past this one. I know the "bad" boys are so cool, but u deserve so much better. It seems to be the most unhealthy thing in ur life.
On the SG set tip lets talk this week, u r up late right?
On the SG set tip lets talk this week, u r up late right?
So last night I went out promoting with my friend Karla and her bf and some of his friends. To make a long story short, I got assaulted, cried hysterically for most of the night, called Nick, woke him up, went to his house and he treated me like shit. He basically implied I brought the ordeal on myself, didn't comfort me or hug me...
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pirate_romeo:
I gotta agree with the others. You need to move on. Regardless of how he may have acted in the past, this incident shows him for who he really is. The cold hard fact is the chips were down and he couldn't/wouldn't step up. That's no way to be towards anyone; family/friend/significant other.
Think about the long term. What the fuck kind of father would this guy make?
Anyway feel better. And never forget that you deserve better. Like a thousand times better.
Think about the long term. What the fuck kind of father would this guy make?
Anyway feel better. And never forget that you deserve better. Like a thousand times better.
whiskeybent:
I can't believe the way people act sometimes. Feel better lady. 
I feel 100% today. I've been to the gym everyday this week for at least 2 hours, and today is my day off
Last night I was talking to Nick online and I told him I missed him and puppy so he told me to come over. Had a really great time, we went and got a burrito, he gave me a backscratch and then...
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Last night I was talking to Nick online and I told him I missed him and puppy so he told me to come over. Had a really great time, we went and got a burrito, he gave me a backscratch and then...
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eazy:
What? You weigh more than 105 already? I don't believe it.
carryavengeance:
115...jeez, i'm surprised you're not blowing away in the wind already 
I've said it before, and I'll say it again, "I LOVE BEING A NINJA TURTLE."
No, actually, what I really want to say is: sometimes you find help in the places yo'ud least expect, and for this I am grateful. So thank you to everyone on SG that has been here for me and offered their kind words and advice. It means so much more...
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No, actually, what I really want to say is: sometimes you find help in the places yo'ud least expect, and for this I am grateful. So thank you to everyone on SG that has been here for me and offered their kind words and advice. It means so much more...
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lores:
Yeah, everyone says that.
No, hold on a minute, just wtf are the on about?
viva la burrito.
No, hold on a minute, just wtf are the on about?
viva la burrito.
thescottness:
my roommate's cousin is going to try and get me started in kickboxing. She goes to a gym just up the street from my apartment and it's only $10 a lesson, or $40 a month for unlimited use. It sounds cool, cause some days you just feel like hitting stuff...
and my roommate told me I can't break any more doors in the apartment.
hope you're feeling better!
go ninja go ninja GO!
and my roommate told me I can't break any more doors in the apartment.
hope you're feeling better!
go ninja go ninja GO!
God bless credit cards. I will probably never pay mine off, but at least I was able to recertify my CPR and get my NASM certification. I still have to renew AFAA, but that can wait till March.
Now all I need to do is win about $3k on a scratcher and I'll be completely debt free.
P.S. I'm still fucking low and I hate...
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Now all I need to do is win about $3k on a scratcher and I'll be completely debt free.
P.S. I'm still fucking low and I hate...
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steve_huge:
nah your not weak... just upset.... go get inked... go on, go on, go on.... have something big and cool... ooh no... have something written... something that you can always look back on and reflect at times like this
thats why i had my forearms done.... i'm big on the whole stop dwelling, start doing and my forearms remind me of that...
so a block of text that means something to you, something someone has said to cheer you up in the past or something wise that someone has said to make you see things arent as bad as they appear etc.
still cant help with the hug as i'm still no closer than i was the other day, but a great big hug in spirit is winging its way across the ocean
don't have a drink though, be strong, stick it out... certainly no pills... to many of my friends turn straight to them when they're down.... christ i hate it... is far to easy a solution... except its not it just delays...
anyway got side tracked then
why doesnt amazon sell tattoos... you could put them on your wish list... i'd buy you one then as a cheer you up gift... maybe next time im in CA working (couple of months) i'll treat you to one
hope you're feeling alittle happier
never know... maybe that scratch card will come in today
thats why i had my forearms done.... i'm big on the whole stop dwelling, start doing and my forearms remind me of that...
so a block of text that means something to you, something someone has said to cheer you up in the past or something wise that someone has said to make you see things arent as bad as they appear etc.
still cant help with the hug as i'm still no closer than i was the other day, but a great big hug in spirit is winging its way across the ocean
don't have a drink though, be strong, stick it out... certainly no pills... to many of my friends turn straight to them when they're down.... christ i hate it... is far to easy a solution... except its not it just delays...
anyway got side tracked then
why doesnt amazon sell tattoos... you could put them on your wish list... i'd buy you one then as a cheer you up gift... maybe next time im in CA working (couple of months) i'll treat you to one
hope you're feeling alittle happier
never know... maybe that scratch card will come in today
steve_huge:
i'm always here if you need to vent
and your fella is just as lucky a lad... it just seems like he doesnt realize it often enough... but i'm sure he will... and if not... trust me, its his loss, not yours
how true that quote is...
actually the quote on my forearms maybe extremely relevant to you in you current situation...
when near ink, one gets stained black
when near vermillion, one gets stained red
...
think on it
helps me out a lot
a lot of people ask what it means to which i always tell them... think on it
they also ask what vermillion is... incase you dont know... its like ink... only red
hope you smile soon... you better... i dont want to have to come all the way over there just to see you smile
but next time i am in CA, the drinks (fruit juice of course) are on me
speak soon
and your fella is just as lucky a lad... it just seems like he doesnt realize it often enough... but i'm sure he will... and if not... trust me, its his loss, not yours
how true that quote is...
actually the quote on my forearms maybe extremely relevant to you in you current situation...
when near ink, one gets stained black
when near vermillion, one gets stained red
...
think on it
helps me out a lot
a lot of people ask what it means to which i always tell them... think on it
they also ask what vermillion is... incase you dont know... its like ink... only red
hope you smile soon... you better... i dont want to have to come all the way over there just to see you smile
but next time i am in CA, the drinks (fruit juice of course
) are on me
speak soon
I've been feeling so low lately, it's awful.
I want a hug and someone to cry on. I don't know what's the matter with me.
I want a hug and someone to cry on. I don't know what's the matter with me.
gabriel_rain:
Sorry. I've also been in a down mood too. Theres too much on my mind and few i can go to. I hope you feel better and I send hugs. Take Care
thescottness:
sorry you're feeling blue.
for some odd reason this kid just made me laugh. Perhaps it's because the fingers on his right hand look broken.... hehehehe.
yeah. Ichi the killer is pretty much all blood and guts, but it's blood and guts WITH A PURPOSE!
and the main villian in the movie just kicks ass.
hope you feel better... Cherrios always makes me feel better.
sorry you're feeling blue.
for some odd reason this kid just made me laugh. Perhaps it's because the fingers on his right hand look broken.... hehehehe.
yeah. Ichi the killer is pretty much all blood and guts, but it's blood and guts WITH A PURPOSE!
and the main villian in the movie just kicks ass.
hope you feel better... Cherrios always makes me feel better.
Holy frijoles, what do you know? I'M DOING LAUNDRY.
Today I'm hitting the gym twice. I wanna lose 10 pounds asap, so its weights in the morning and kickboxing at night.
I know I'll probably get shit on for this, but I feel fat. I feel like a huge ass whale and I know I can't be. I went from being a size 13 a...
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Today I'm hitting the gym twice. I wanna lose 10 pounds asap, so its weights in the morning and kickboxing at night.
I know I'll probably get shit on for this, but I feel fat. I feel like a huge ass whale and I know I can't be. I went from being a size 13 a...
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aaxxx:
Yeah i know what you mean... I lost 60 pounds... I was a real fat ass... and even though I went from a waist size 44 to a size 32 I dont really notice the different unless I compare it to an old picture... yeah I don't know where I am going with this but I wouldn't mind losing 30 more pounds... or at least toning up what I got... but I dont know I want to be the skinny kid...that'll never happen
eazy:
Cheesy lingerie = good.
Working out to feel better about urself = good
Working out to make other people feel better about u = bad.
Starving to fit an impossible dream = bad
Hanging out with ian = good
Working out to feel better about urself = good
Working out to make other people feel better about u = bad.
Starving to fit an impossible dream = bad
Hanging out with ian = good
Hey internet,
I'm RETARDED.
After 2 hours at the gym kickboxing and lifting weights like a girly man, I feel a lot better. Now I am going to drown in the tub if I can crawl my way to it and I am sad I don't have any fun bathoils or beads and what have you. Must remember to buy nice smelling stuff. Then I...
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I'm RETARDED.
After 2 hours at the gym kickboxing and lifting weights like a girly man, I feel a lot better. Now I am going to drown in the tub if I can crawl my way to it and I am sad I don't have any fun bathoils or beads and what have you. Must remember to buy nice smelling stuff. Then I...
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steve_huge:
pirate.... thats the way to go... why has no one done a pirate set yet... and if they have why havent i seen it...
cant help with the bath unfortunately... waaayyyyyy to far away.... what about you tell me what time you're having the bath, and i'll have one at the same time... it'll be more like a spiritual bath... doesnt really help with the hair though...
was going to get my girlie to do a pirate set... but if you beat her to it i'm sure i'll think of something else
cant help with the bath unfortunately... waaayyyyyy to far away.... what about you tell me what time you're having the bath, and i'll have one at the same time... it'll be more like a spiritual bath... doesnt really help with the hair though...
was going to get my girlie to do a pirate set... but if you beat her to it i'm sure i'll think of something else
lores:
Damn, can't help you - my arms are jello too after snowboarding. I've invented loads of, er, 'rad' new tricks though. Most of which involve sliding down the mountain on my face.
Well, I made it 29 days without getting drunk.
Last night Karla and her bf broke up so I took her to dinner, only intending to have one drink. I ended up having 5 big ones, ended up at a biker bar, made friends with some old biker dudes, got hookups to the Queensryche show, got offered a ride on a Harley, and got a...
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Last night Karla and her bf broke up so I took her to dinner, only intending to have one drink. I ended up having 5 big ones, ended up at a biker bar, made friends with some old biker dudes, got hookups to the Queensryche show, got offered a ride on a Harley, and got a...
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malloreigh:
you are a sexpie. a sexual pie god damnit.
steve_huge:
hey you... sucks about the job... but thats not a definite no... not that that helps but...
nick sounds... different... is the nicest way i can put it, and you do go through some real highs and low's... simple fact is, you can do better... no i dont know you and no i dont know him... but... i do read your journal and with those differences, you can do better. he may be the nicest guy in the world be if he does not fulfill what you need personall that means you can do better as nice or not, he's bad for you if he cant be what you need...
as i say no moping more doing... works well for material things... not so well for emotional... thats a different kettle of fish entirely unfortunately...
but be happy in the fact that you are smart, a nice person, caring and not that its an important factor, but you are attractive as well. just because the person you want to geet something back from doesnt give it, i'm sure the majority of people you do care for, give to and go out of the way for appreciate it loads... i appreciate it when you comment in my journal, it makes me smile... which means it was worth the five minutes of your time to do it...
it gets you plenty to give... makes you feel good when at least one person appreciates it doesnt it, makes you feel good when you genuinely make someone smile or happy, makes you feeel good when someone appreciates you back, nick or otherwise, thaat makes it worth giving for...
on top of that just look around each day, specially when things seem their worse, there'll be something there to make you appreciaate what you do have... and its worth giving... even to those that dont appreciate it... at least yyou know you're not like them... which puts you in a far better position than they'll ever be...
i care and i appreciate the efffort you put in just to say hi on my jourrnal when i'm down, i know it doesnt stand for much, but at least you know someone appreciates the effort you make and as much as that isn't a hug its the best i can offer from where i am... that and you managed to make me smile today... so the day wasnt a totla loss
anyway yet again i've rambeled on... sorry... i do that a lot
i hope somewhere i've been able to raise a smile... if so... thats makes me feeel good... you lokk far nicer smiling i'm sure
if you ever need a chat...
x
nick sounds... different... is the nicest way i can put it, and you do go through some real highs and low's... simple fact is, you can do better... no i dont know you and no i dont know him... but... i do read your journal and with those differences, you can do better. he may be the nicest guy in the world be if he does not fulfill what you need personall that means you can do better as nice or not, he's bad for you if he cant be what you need...
as i say no moping more doing... works well for material things... not so well for emotional... thats a different kettle of fish entirely unfortunately...
but be happy in the fact that you are smart, a nice person, caring and not that its an important factor, but you are attractive as well. just because the person you want to geet something back from doesnt give it, i'm sure the majority of people you do care for, give to and go out of the way for appreciate it loads... i appreciate it when you comment in my journal, it makes me smile... which means it was worth the five minutes of your time to do it...
it gets you plenty to give... makes you feel good when at least one person appreciates it doesnt it, makes you feel good when you genuinely make someone smile or happy, makes you feeel good when someone appreciates you back, nick or otherwise, thaat makes it worth giving for...
on top of that just look around each day, specially when things seem their worse, there'll be something there to make you appreciaate what you do have... and its worth giving... even to those that dont appreciate it... at least yyou know you're not like them... which puts you in a far better position than they'll ever be...
i care and i appreciate the efffort you put in just to say hi on my jourrnal when i'm down, i know it doesnt stand for much, but at least you know someone appreciates the effort you make and as much as that isn't a hug its the best i can offer from where i am... that and you managed to make me smile today... so the day wasnt a totla loss
anyway yet again i've rambeled on... sorry... i do that a lot
i hope somewhere i've been able to raise a smile... if so... thats makes me feeel good... you lokk far nicer smiling i'm sure
if you ever need a chat...
x
Be prepared to die from a cuteness overload...I present to you my puppy: APOLLO CREED!
I had originally posted pix directly to here, but it started taking 47 years for anything to show up, so go look in my pictures section for a couple of shots of his royal puppyness.
Weekend was good, slow, watched some horror flicks, got some sleep, some lovin, some sushi,...
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I had originally posted pix directly to here, but it started taking 47 years for anything to show up, so go look in my pictures section for a couple of shots of his royal puppyness.
Weekend was good, slow, watched some horror flicks, got some sleep, some lovin, some sushi,...
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lores:
I have a friend who has a real weakness for cute puppies. If I send her any of those pictures, I think she'll implode in some kind of sqealing pink cuteness-vortex
eazy:
Whenever ur free I will find a way to meet up with you. I work an average of 16 hours a day Mon-Fri, but I will find a way so we can make this a reality. It is time to change u from member to GIRL.
So today, or yesterday rather, I ate a bunch of crappy food, slept through kickboxing, then woke up and got my hair done and then went on a date with my hot redheaded friend Karla to get burgers, ice cream, and see a movie. We saw Life Aquatic, and I wouldn't reccommend wasting the money to see it. I don't hate it, but I don't...
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acidevangelist:
Makeout sessions never get old...
steve_huge:
ok i've been with my girl 7 years (just had our 7th anniversary)... honestly...
no, never, is all good... if anything they should get better... you lose the need for sex... now dont get me wrong... the need or want for sex should never go... but... its nice to just spend the nite making out and fooling around
fuck me boots, long coat... like the bow tie, i've never had that one, had the rest though... trust me... if you can pull it off without smiling... he'll be a happy happy men... i was... but don't expect to just make out afteer that though
you sound happy
is nice
no, never, is all good... if anything they should get better... you lose the need for sex... now dont get me wrong... the need or want for sex should never go... but... its nice to just spend the nite making out and fooling around
fuck me boots, long coat... like the bow tie, i've never had that one, had the rest though... trust me... if you can pull it off without smiling... he'll be a happy happy men... i was
... but don't expect to just make out afteer that though
you sound happy
is nice
I just read your entry but it is not just the guys who are shitty my ex is keeping me around just incase she can't find someone but the bad part is I know it and I can't get my self out... So I feel your pain girl so again ARRRRRRRRRR
[Edited on Jan 24, 2005 9:55PM]
We have the same birthday & like Sinatra & the Big Lebowski...
I'm not joining your Shitty-BF group thought...