drinking tea this morning, or shall i say afternoon. i slept in so late today. things are looking better here in new york.
ive made a great friend named amy, she has the sexiest tattoos! and she knows about all the cool places in brooklyn! who would have known that you can get seven dollar manicures?!!!!
i have 4 other roommates, they are all really nice! i wish i had more time and money to actually decorate my spot and make it my own, i guess ill do that once i get a job and have a steady income. im really scared i wont find a job, i have enough saved up to last me till august first, i know i have some time, but id rather have a job now, i could stay busy, and feel like im actually doing something.
my love life is confusing as fuck. i have a guy here (the bartender) and a guy at home (the lawyer) and the guy i moved to new york to get away from (the heart breaker)
wheni first moved here, the bartender and i hit it off great and things were very sweet, but now were both busy and i havent seen him in a few days... the lawyer has been calling me and texting me and giving me the attention that i desire and im starting to miss him so much. he treated me so well, like a girl deserves to be treated. he opened doors for me, he would drive all the way from the city to pick me up, he knows how to treat waiters and waitresses with respect, he treats me with respect, ..... it was great being with a man.
now, the heartbreaker. im still completely 100% still in love with him. he haunts my dreams and my day dreams. he wont respond to me when i try to contact him. its the saddest part of my life. he taught me so much and now i cant see him or even talk to him.
i know he has been through a lot. and i know he has so much else on his mind. his son just moved to live in sf with him. i cant imagine what hes going through, but thats why i want to talk to him. i want to kiss him and tell him i care about him. but he wont even talk to me. i guess i did abandon everything about sf, including him. i just picked up and left with little warning.
i pulled a geographic, i left sf to get away from myself, and my problems. but now that im here... nothings changed except location, and im jobless. which reminds me... i need to get a fucking job.
ive made a great friend named amy, she has the sexiest tattoos! and she knows about all the cool places in brooklyn! who would have known that you can get seven dollar manicures?!!!!
i have 4 other roommates, they are all really nice! i wish i had more time and money to actually decorate my spot and make it my own, i guess ill do that once i get a job and have a steady income. im really scared i wont find a job, i have enough saved up to last me till august first, i know i have some time, but id rather have a job now, i could stay busy, and feel like im actually doing something.
my love life is confusing as fuck. i have a guy here (the bartender) and a guy at home (the lawyer) and the guy i moved to new york to get away from (the heart breaker)
wheni first moved here, the bartender and i hit it off great and things were very sweet, but now were both busy and i havent seen him in a few days... the lawyer has been calling me and texting me and giving me the attention that i desire and im starting to miss him so much. he treated me so well, like a girl deserves to be treated. he opened doors for me, he would drive all the way from the city to pick me up, he knows how to treat waiters and waitresses with respect, he treats me with respect, ..... it was great being with a man.
now, the heartbreaker. im still completely 100% still in love with him. he haunts my dreams and my day dreams. he wont respond to me when i try to contact him. its the saddest part of my life. he taught me so much and now i cant see him or even talk to him.
i know he has been through a lot. and i know he has so much else on his mind. his son just moved to live in sf with him. i cant imagine what hes going through, but thats why i want to talk to him. i want to kiss him and tell him i care about him. but he wont even talk to me. i guess i did abandon everything about sf, including him. i just picked up and left with little warning.
i pulled a geographic, i left sf to get away from myself, and my problems. but now that im here... nothings changed except location, and im jobless. which reminds me... i need to get a fucking job.
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midnightrider454:
hope it all works out for you
urbanvoyeur:
Welcome to Brooklyn!