the only thing standing in my way is my sister. my own flesh and blood. she is a new yorker. and the second i let her know that ive made up my mind to move to new york, she gets upset and throws a fit. she doesnt want me in "her" city. and shes completely comfortable being selfish.
i do understand how im upsetting her.
i feel like if i move to new york, shell hate me. and running into her will be embarrassing. but should i give up my day dreams so she can feel better? she is my only sister, and fighting with her is not easy for either of us.
at this point in time, it feels like if i move to new york, she will stop talking to me, and if i move somewhere else ill stop talking to her. i have to figure this out soon because i want to get the fuck out of cali by may.
advice?
i do understand how im upsetting her.
i feel like if i move to new york, shell hate me. and running into her will be embarrassing. but should i give up my day dreams so she can feel better? she is my only sister, and fighting with her is not easy for either of us.
at this point in time, it feels like if i move to new york, she will stop talking to me, and if i move somewhere else ill stop talking to her. i have to figure this out soon because i want to get the fuck out of cali by may.
advice?
werlywolf:
do what makes YOU happy.
vine1:
new york makes me happy. i guess ll see you there. thank you doll.