Another day passes as I watch the rain from my window
But, with every droplet the reality sinks in and the pain will never go
Please go away rid me of this disease it always stays festering
Serving only one purpose to continue to hurt me menacingly
Exposing a shocking revelation to my non-existent life
Holding tight, losing might, cannot distinguish what is right
Questioning judgment, right and wrong go hand in hand
I have transformed my existence into a man without a plan
I can never understand why nothing ever pans out
The way I want, or have foreseen, without a patch to keep the wound sealed.
To keep it here all I’ve got is fear and reasonable doubt
For situations have blurred my vision, the voices have become too loud
I cannot escape from the day, just perched on this cloud
That pouring rain the hate I’ve sustained should not be allowed
For I have become a lonely being, shackled and bound
I cannot resist the simple pleasures that do not exist in my world
It seems like my dreams have become an unfruitful obsession
A lost soul embarking on a hopeless mission, losing ambition
Just won’t someone please play savior and slow the pain down
Lock me in a room and let me breathe-in, the despair in the air
It may seem unfair at first but that feeling will soon pass
You can literally hear that menacing clock ticking my life away
The silence is deafening and you can hear yourself think
As you contemplate what’s right and what’s immoral, your eyes are ashamed
As you begin to fade you hear an abrupt banging at the door
I begin to cringe at the notion that it will go away if I ignore the sound
But, it continues to cave in, imploding the very foundation for my sins
Severing my only cure and I still yearn for more but never winning
Entrenching my body in debauchery and misery constantly
My eyes are stapled shut and I am incapable of attaining hope
My leisure time has now winded down to a pillar of nothingness
And all I have, all that I am, is rendered worthless preying on my soul
I believe that it is but possibly it is everything around me
My complete makeup, the fabric is stained, losing sanity
My genetic code has been tainted by mindless alcoholism
Sold to the deprived hoping it can cure the scared ones inside
But, only creating mindless drones watching time waste away
And never appreciating the mortal shell that one possesses
I wave my hands as I watch it all slip past me, the clock still ticking...