vervain______

nice when you give cake on birthdays. they say to keep going. if you are afraid of hieghts and you are high up, dont look down. you are smart then not to look down. my fingers seem to know where to go, even if he can't quite be there with me, i don't blame him, its hard to be a boy. i wanted to be a girl in this life. shake things up for myself. i was a boy a lot and remember the dick, but now i'm learning other things. i get frusterated. it must be hard to love someone that does'nt trust you. that building was many stories high. when i looked out i could imagine floating above it, having that view. on breaks, i would disappear into a straiwell. sometimes i would do pushups or just stare out the window always listening for a door opening. it was pure there, i thought. things were kept moving. i liked it. i would think what i meant to him. when we watch movies with beautiful ladies in them, i say that curve, that tit is only half the story. everybody has pain, everyone has something that can dull the light or steal it away. no one feels good all the time and it is okay.