venti_mistake

fuck this. Therer is no way or reason someone should have the power to ruin anyone's day like this. What the FUCK is there to be gained by being mean??? I mean really, is being nice and civil that FUCKING hard to do? I do it all the time, I am so tired of being the doormat and being the one to always fucking bend. And then if I don't i'm an ASSHOLE???? FUCK YOU!
I didn't choose the cowards way out, I'm still fucking breathing aren't I. That means that I have feelings right? Fucking being dead and not hurting would be so much easier than this right? But no- I'm still here and I'm not running away even though everything in my gut is telling me to just fucking leave or end it right here and right now.
What the FUCK??? When the hell is this nice guy gonna get his break? Is it true assholes always finish first?
I'm tired of fighting everything. I used to think everything worth having was worth working hard for. I don't even fucking know that anymore.
I don't want to be the nice guy anymore. It fucking sucks. I want to be an asshole and fucking finish in first for once in my pathetic life. I have to beautifull kids I know, but I can't even count on that. As shitty of a mother she is she can still take even that away friom me. So what the hell do I have. A bunch of drunk local friends who just blow sunshine up my ass and tell me fuck that bitch. Well, "fuck that bitch" doesn't fix my life boys, sorry! Just buy me another fucking shot and shut up.
I'm tired of all this, it's even affecting my fucking health- MY HEALTH!!!
So now this shit is gonna kill me now too???
When the hell did my life get so shitty? Why the FUCK didn't I see this comming???

Take it from me; nice guys really do finish fucking last and I think that's just a fucking law of the fucking universe.