Well here is the crazy thing.....
Sunday Lisa and I were talking about things about us and my opinion came up I mentioned that I wasn't sure how I felt with the relationship, about aspect of it not being comfortable for me and I could put her at number one all the time... so it ended there.....
Later on I was talking to her and we were both kinda upset and decided to see each other. We talked things through in person and decided we would really try and fix things and see how it went, then we spent the night together.
Next day, we were hanging out, made a joke she should be dating my friend who was with us because they got a long real well. I kinda pushed it figuring she would be happy and they decided that was the way it would go.
Well, now I feel like shit for letting her go. I needed the time to figure out my emotions and what I want from people and now I got that, and she isn't at home crying, so why do I feel like shit. Because in the long run stuff may not work out. I may realize she was the best thing for me and I let it slip away. She was a great girl, she had her faults, but she loved me for me and more than anything, and would do anything for me.
GOD, I HATE MYSELF FOR SUCKING AT LIFE
Sunday Lisa and I were talking about things about us and my opinion came up I mentioned that I wasn't sure how I felt with the relationship, about aspect of it not being comfortable for me and I could put her at number one all the time... so it ended there.....
Later on I was talking to her and we were both kinda upset and decided to see each other. We talked things through in person and decided we would really try and fix things and see how it went, then we spent the night together.
Next day, we were hanging out, made a joke she should be dating my friend who was with us because they got a long real well. I kinda pushed it figuring she would be happy and they decided that was the way it would go.
Well, now I feel like shit for letting her go. I needed the time to figure out my emotions and what I want from people and now I got that, and she isn't at home crying, so why do I feel like shit. Because in the long run stuff may not work out. I may realize she was the best thing for me and I let it slip away. She was a great girl, she had her faults, but she loved me for me and more than anything, and would do anything for me.
GOD, I HATE MYSELF FOR SUCKING AT LIFE
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But sometimes you don't truely realize what you had until you loose it.
N.