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About a half hour after I said goodbye to Linda after we watched Secretary, completely out of the blue, I had this incredibly vivid, realistic vision of Linda being in a hit and run, her body flung up in the air.

It was so strong it replaced my normal vision and superimposed itself. I have never had it so strong before in memory.

I am kicking myself now because instead of running out to check with only risk being that I'd appear a little stupid, along the street I know she took....
...instead I just laid in bed and prayed really, really hard and sent angels and sent golden walls of energy around her...

I'm so stupid...I should have gone to check. Just a 5 minute walk up a street to look for a body...that's it.

I've left a msg on her answering service and an sms to just reply back and say she's OK. I'm trying very hard not to freak out. Other than that, I really have no way of contacting her or finding out if she's OK.

Her phone has been turned off for the last 2 days. All I get is voicemail.

She works near where I live and her shift begins about when I finish, so after my work, I'm swinging by to see her in the flesh.

I really, really hope all I'll get is really embarassed.

I have never lost anyone close to me, and FUCK ME if that's going to start with her.

:scared:

I think I'll go up that street and see if there's any....evidence...

It would take just 5 minutes....

the new profile pic is of me feeling worried. and being brave about it.