vassago

felt better today, in every respect.
Im really tired of this "heartbroken" bullshit.

I went out the City Club tonight. Dancing seems to be the only thing that can help me anymore.

When I dance.. everything evil is quiet for a bit.

Ive been staying in all day.
I have alot on my mind, and a wicked cold.

I feel drained, too. It takes alot for me to leave the house or pick up the phone or get out of bed.. forgive me.

Strange.. What is at one point beyond imagining so quickly becomes the mundane. We always need something greater for that same high.

Those things that hold me in Michigan are falling away. More than anything, I am due for a walkabout.

Into my desert..

"Don't forget, you're condemned to me."

The past few days have been better.
I have learned alot, my eyes are opening..
I am still blind.

I miss my little girl.
away for a reason.. I have beautiful friends.
you keep me alive.

This includes you, Ines.

I wonder.. how true could it all be.
My Astrological natal readout...
http://www.oxea.net/soma/nc.html

I dont want to be alone. figures.

"Im nobody's little weasel."

of course, she is right.
I deserve this. All of it.

I have been a narrow, sick fucker.

I have added 5 new pictures of myself my site. yay.

In more worthwhile news, I will be leaving detroit for LA at 7pm tommorow. Most likely, i won't post again until I return next monday. Hopefully this trip adds a silver lining to the toxic cloud that my life has become.

...girls.

One fine Day


I pray that when he is inside you,
his filth clouding your womb,
that a secret runs across your lips
A terrible little thought of my tears
and my loving brown eyes
and my promises.

Perhaps, bewteen his thrusts,
and his confused grunts,
you will catch a torturous little glimpse
of knotted hair passing softly over your stomach
as I kissed your...
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Lullaby for the Deaf


Say it. Crush me.
Feed what you have left of me to your ego and your past.

Shred me in the rotting teeth of your prejudice and your dry sex.
Make my young soul a slave to your hypocritical whimsy.

Please, do this.
I give myself to you.
I have sacrificed my youth and my soft, white flesh.

I promise to...
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Ive tried to survive this.
How could you just NOT even bother talking to me anymore at all?

I know you hate me for needing you.

I love you, I dont know what else to say.
Nothing matters.. the endless volumes Ive written you mean nothing.
After two years of loving me.. you tirn yourself off like a lightswitch.

I only got sad because you...
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