vassago

"Its hard to dance with the devil on your back...."


I woke today from a broken sleep... i had a fever over the night.
When I woke, I had suffered some nightmares, which had me upset... thinking, remebering... moving in circles and further into sadness...
...then I started, by instinct, to thnk of cutting...
I had to think myself away from it. God...
My life has been wrong and misguided for over two years... it is no wonder part of me aches to get out of here.

Sometimes my skin is still crawling and alive with hunger for H. I miss her still. So many times have I been forced to walk away from a lover I so dearly needed.
H is no different.
Right now I am alone, and I am broken.

I can admit that... not long now.