vassago

went to CC tonight.
It fucking sucked.

I am less like anyone else by the passing day...
them: drink, snort, drink, vomit, screw, vomit, sleep...
me: think, cry, starve, sleep.

nothing reaches me anymore.. noone at all. It's like i am floating in space, a creature of my own right.

I can't help it. I have become what I have become. The funny result of taking the jagged road of self analysis and destruction.
Can't help but be reborn then.. different.

You will have me when you care enough to actually look for me.. to actually see me.
You can have me when you bother to actually hear me.. not just listen, but actually hear me.
You will have me when you are willing to disect every fiber that I am, look at everything, and know me for it all...
.. and let me in to do these things to you.

Tonight, you walked right past me without a glance.
I went ignored.

bad move. spell broken.