Hi-8 Sex
While I was in Asheville, Wyspurr and I grabbed a few things from the old house. Among these things were a Hi-8 videotape of Wyspurr filming Terina and I having sex. I just watched a bit of it, though unfortunately Hi-8 tapes don't play on my Digital-8 camera and my Hi-8 camera can't hold a battery charge so I only got to see about 20 minutes of it before it died. At any rate, I'm glad I found it since it's the only videotape in existance of me having intercourse with someone. I wish I had more sexual home videos. Unfortunately, without a third partner there's no one to hold the camera and what fun is a home video if it doesn't change angles and focus?
I've been missing Terina a lot since Leigh asked me about her while I was in Asheville. Actually, I've always missed her a lot, but up 'til now I've been much better about keeping my attention on other things. I loved her so much...there was so much that was great between us. I'd give so much to be with her again, but that can never be. We'll probably never even talk to each other again. I hate that. I really do, especially since it's my own fault...I wasn't able to emotionally handle her back and forthing about what kind of relationship we had. I never really meant to shut the door on our friendship...I just pulled away and when I got myself back together she wasn't there anymore and now all I can do is guess she's happier without me in her life.
I can't blame her. I think I'd be happier without me in my life too.
While I was in Asheville, Wyspurr and I grabbed a few things from the old house. Among these things were a Hi-8 videotape of Wyspurr filming Terina and I having sex. I just watched a bit of it, though unfortunately Hi-8 tapes don't play on my Digital-8 camera and my Hi-8 camera can't hold a battery charge so I only got to see about 20 minutes of it before it died. At any rate, I'm glad I found it since it's the only videotape in existance of me having intercourse with someone. I wish I had more sexual home videos. Unfortunately, without a third partner there's no one to hold the camera and what fun is a home video if it doesn't change angles and focus?
I've been missing Terina a lot since Leigh asked me about her while I was in Asheville. Actually, I've always missed her a lot, but up 'til now I've been much better about keeping my attention on other things. I loved her so much...there was so much that was great between us. I'd give so much to be with her again, but that can never be. We'll probably never even talk to each other again. I hate that. I really do, especially since it's my own fault...I wasn't able to emotionally handle her back and forthing about what kind of relationship we had. I never really meant to shut the door on our friendship...I just pulled away and when I got myself back together she wasn't there anymore and now all I can do is guess she's happier without me in her life.
I can't blame her. I think I'd be happier without me in my life too.