Right, so the boyfriend was just round to drop off all my stuff, he handed me a letter, i read it, so wanted to cry, but couldnt, not in front of him.
We talked, alot. I said if there is any chance of us getting back together things need to change,drasticallyHe hadnt been to work, he spent the day with his dad, broke...
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We talked, alot. I said if there is any chance of us getting back together things need to change,drasticallyHe hadnt been to work, he spent the day with his dad, broke...
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Im doing okay.
Last night i cut all down my left thigh, not because of my boyfriend, but because i ate too much. And i took laxatives.
My old therapist has referred me to another psychiatrist, i dont plan on attending the appointment, the mental health system can go fuck a swamp log as far as im concerned.
I had an absolute nut at...
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Last night i cut all down my left thigh, not because of my boyfriend, but because i ate too much. And i took laxatives.
My old therapist has referred me to another psychiatrist, i dont plan on attending the appointment, the mental health system can go fuck a swamp log as far as im concerned.
I had an absolute nut at...
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wexsingxsin:
Well I am watching all the stupid movies based on all these killers, I dont know what else to do.
jozsef:
About a minute ago I had my very first experience of being delighted to learn that someone got punched in the face. I knew I was right when I expressed faith in your judgment earlier today. 
The cutting wasn't your judgment, but an old internalized voice. Just cough him up and spit him out. Who the hell has the authority to tell you can't overeat? Big deal; you can undereat tomorrow or next week or any damn time you wish. Who's body is it anyway? I do that stuff all the time and get along just fine with no need to cut, burn, freeze or puree myself. You have all the same rights as everyone else and you're twice as smart as most, so I know you can sort all this out just fine. All my friends know I believe in you and I have no fear of feeling foolish.
The cutting wasn't your judgment, but an old internalized voice. Just cough him up and spit him out. Who the hell has the authority to tell you can't overeat? Big deal; you can undereat tomorrow or next week or any damn time you wish. Who's body is it anyway? I do that stuff all the time and get along just fine with no need to cut, burn, freeze or puree myself. You have all the same rights as everyone else and you're twice as smart as most, so I know you can sort all this out just fine. All my friends know I believe in you and I have no fear of feeling foolish.
Last night, well this morning..my boyfriend beat me up.
I dont know what else to say.
I love him so so much,but why?
He was drunk, he stabbed me with a pen,head butted me,slapped me and then threw me to the floor, in front of his mates, who all jeered and egged him on.
Dont tell me to leave him, or feel all sorry for...
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I dont know what else to say.
I love him so so much,but why?
He was drunk, he stabbed me with a pen,head butted me,slapped me and then threw me to the floor, in front of his mates, who all jeered and egged him on.
Dont tell me to leave him, or feel all sorry for...
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viejo:
Okay, you're right... but those are the common "responses", yes? So I lectured; sorry. I get a little bent over that sort of thing.
ribbon_____:
I know exactly how u feel. i went through the same thing everyday for like 8 months. 
It really sux.
It really sux.
Im tired, how unusual, i just tried to have a nap-unsuccessfully. Caffiene will do the trick.
In New Zealand we have some awesome music. Check out these homies.
Havent eaten dinner two nights in a row now, just dont have an appetite.Its driving my mother crazy. Blah to her. Will update later cant be fudged right now..going to go take a nukmber two atempt at...
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In New Zealand we have some awesome music. Check out these homies.
Havent eaten dinner two nights in a row now, just dont have an appetite.Its driving my mother crazy. Blah to her. Will update later cant be fudged right now..going to go take a nukmber two atempt at...
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gadget:
I know how it turns into that. Give yourself a little pep talk in your head. That's what I do. Most of the time it works and it calms me down and keeps me on track.
blaze:
Thanks soooo much, for the comment! You're sweet :] and oh, so pretty, too. I hope you had a better attempt at napping! Take it easy, girl... and, smoke a little pot...
it'll help you to gain an appatite, again. I promise ;].
it'll help you to gain an appatite, again. I promise ;].
Hola bitches.
er im really frustrated about my weight right now, i know i have gained weight in the last few months, and im not happy. I know in reality im not fat, but god i still feel that way, i feel so uncomfortable.
So now i have this new worry to contemplate..my boyfriends ex is apparently trying to lose weight to be as...
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er im really frustrated about my weight right now, i know i have gained weight in the last few months, and im not happy. I know in reality im not fat, but god i still feel that way, i feel so uncomfortable.
So now i have this new worry to contemplate..my boyfriends ex is apparently trying to lose weight to be as...
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padre:
I should say be sure to get you in the pictures... cuz i care to only see you and family then friends 
wexsingxsin:
I very much love that we both know about the song I dont feel so retarted now.
Speaking of random rap songs I so downloading some Twista right now.
Speaking of random rap songs I so downloading some Twista right now.
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padre:
Well have a good time tomorrow... now when you say you couldnt get fucked what do you mean?
luxdeadfrog:
I think there must be as many Maori living in Bondi as there are in New Zealand. As for Phar Lap, how can you claim him if you sold him unraced? And I won't even mention the Rugby World Cup that the Wallabies have won twice. 
You can pay me back on the Silliness Board later on.
Seeya babe,
Lux
You can pay me back on the Silliness Board later on.
Seeya babe,
Lux
Today has started off really gay, and continued to get more faggy as the time ticks itself by.
I was woken up pre-maturely by my dog barking, fucking jehovahs witnesses were at the door trying to get in to present me with some of their lovely little books, i didnt get out of bed, and i knew it was them because they left their little...
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I was woken up pre-maturely by my dog barking, fucking jehovahs witnesses were at the door trying to get in to present me with some of their lovely little books, i didnt get out of bed, and i knew it was them because they left their little...
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enni:
So you live right at the bottom of the south island? Is that right?> My NZ geography isn't too hot
Most of my family live in Dunedin or Nelson. They keep telling me I should pack up and move over there. I'm quite tempted but I'm not too sure...
I think your prime minister is hot. Haha.
Most of my family live in Dunedin or Nelson. They keep telling me I should pack up and move over there. I'm quite tempted but I'm not too sure...
I think your prime minister is hot.
Haha.
annisa:
hey lady, that was a question for staff, not sure why it showed up on your comments
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bob:
Aw...thanks for the kind words...Your such a sweetheart!
So, as ive mentiond before, im on this journey of self-discovery, so now im going to let you into my lives a little bit more, share some facts that maybe you did or didnt know! just for fun, im terribly bored!
- i have a twin brother and a half brother and sister
- i used to be a marching girl, have played representative netball,...
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- i have a twin brother and a half brother and sister
- i used to be a marching girl, have played representative netball,...
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theaceface:
You people have some strange customs down there.
I love how flexible your body is in some of those shots. Just sayin'.
I love how flexible your body is in some of those shots. Just sayin'.
theaceface:
I believe you're quite flexible enough for my purposes. Mwah ha ha ha!
hello hello children reading my blog
actually i hope theres no children reading my blog, that would be a tad bit wrong.
My printer is being a total jerk-off, screwed up the piece of paper in it and smudged shit all over it.
smart machinery.
im feeling pretty good today, i did some sit ups and some weights before, and have eaten reasonbly well today,...
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actually i hope theres no children reading my blog, that would be a tad bit wrong.
My printer is being a total jerk-off, screwed up the piece of paper in it and smudged shit all over it.
smart machinery.
im feeling pretty good today, i did some sit ups and some weights before, and have eaten reasonbly well today,...
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padre:
wow... usually if you told me that i'd be happy to do it but i guess its a bad thing in New Zealand
padre:
oh its taboo here still... Puritan country and all... but still fun sorry if you disapprove 
I'm hoping to get a row of extensions put in, cause then I will have a sweeeeeeeeeet mullet haha.