vacantsin

so lets face it, this was never what you wanted
But I know that its fun to pretend
Our blank stares and empty threats
Are all I have
Theyre all I have

So drown me.. if you can
Or we could just have conversation
and I fall, I fall, I faulter.
I found you before I drift away

Now you still speak of day old...
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I need to celebrate today, but no one to celebrate with...

Time to go for COFFEE!!! mmmmm....COFFEE

Just another vacant fucking lie

look at all the good times that you thought were behind you
and all the empty promises that are locked inside you
all the bad times that will never be behind you

Just another vacant fucking lie

Everyday is the same
Its not your fault, but your the only one to blame
take a hint, life is to far to...
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Asphyxia

Sleep gentle silence
your screams make no sound
the life trickles fluidly
and falls to the ground

Just remember cause your pretty
pretty death machine
we will bring you up
so when you fall we will hear the screams

Sleep gentle progression
the blade inches in
pictures of you
covered in sin.

Screams like a crescendo
climbing cause your high
you were the angel...
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Wow I received some police combat training today... No one is ever going to be able to kick my ass...

Who would have thought that getting all bruised and cut up would be soo much fun...

Having seen NIN has really got me back into the gothy mood that I used to be in when I was younger.

I went for a long drive with nothing but my Kidneythieves, Depeche Mode and NIN of course and it brought back soo many memories..its kinda funny how they say that smell is the sense that triggers most memories..Mine is sound

Wow I havent updated this thing in a while....

NIN was fucking awesome, best concert ever and getting to meet Trent was fucking incredible..

Its safe to say I can die in peace now.

when you come down with the norwalk virus and you are too fragile and weak to move from losing all the fluid and nutrition you kinda want to take some medicine right? why do they make the fucking package soo hard to open? Like who seriously cares about child proofing them...obviously your kid is just going to use scissors to get the fucking thing open...
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Took all this time

why do I
save all my pretty fucking lies
for you
I took all this time
to waste
my life
for all that might have been
and I wait...
Time has shown
That the lines wearing thin

I took all this time
again
to fuck my life
It took me a while
and lifes not worth living again


Why do I...
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Scarred

This storm could stay all night
I see your face in everything
This gift they call cancer
is nothing what they said it would be
the memories of you
will always be

I taste your essence
I felt your kiss
like a malignant tumor
in my mind
Even though I meant nothing
you were everything

can you feel me?
I can feel you
in...
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For all that I will be

the waves begin to crash
and I begin to see
this radiant sunshine
still not meant for me
I hold you in my grasp
and through the cracks in my hand
you slip away like sand
when the waves come to shore
I will surely be swept away
in absolute peace I will be
maybe I'm better off this...
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