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Ever wondered why humans believe that they are more than mere grains of sand in the cosmos?
How humans are so delusional in thinking there is choice and will, and suffering and joy?
When all there is, is the mere rearrangement of particles in a whole.
As if humanity beliefs that if they will the dune, a dune will emerge from the sand.
But alas,...
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sdawg74:
Because our life has a time stamp, if we were truly immortal, we would likely not care... Alas I agree with what you wrote, just got some new ink yesterday that is a cosmic symbol relating to just that, our existence being futile, and we're just star dust, as Sagan once wrote...
headshot:
It is wrong to compare a small life form and the universe. Things are incomparable. The universe doesn't notice. But don't such thoughts cause frustration? You need to think about something else, something that you can directly influence. The universe can be admired, observed and learned, it can and should be a source of inspiration

I'm building a chatbot here name is Esther and she runs complete without internet.

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amra:
That’s awesome! Which language do you use to build a chat bot?
uruviel2001:
@amra thanks 😊 It's my personal project so it's written in Clojure (my favorite language) but if you wanna know how I get the chatty bits locally I'm using llama.cpp (https://github.com/ggerganov/llama.cpp) which runs Large Language Models locally. Still some features to build in  ... but it's a fun project and you do grow attached to the thing you make :p

2022 recap

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In May of this year I had my first manic psychosis. Hallucinations, delusions, the whole thing. I had never experienced anything like it. Committed a felony during it, and broke up during my psychosis with my SO of 14 years. Prior to that I had lost my job. I was sectioned for 4 weeks.

In retrospect I was manic for months before that, and severely...
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littlejohn22:
I hope you are to get help and work on your mental health
skisby:
Ah, I don’t think my advice would help much in your situation, definitely need more professional help. But here’s some stuff that’s helped me - Try to go easy on yourself, eat & rest as best you can.  Spend less time on-line,  around the house & in your own head? I’ve walked more miles in the woods these last 2 months than in the rest of the year combined.  Manual labor if you don’t need the money immediately & can volunteer somewhere? I have unloaded the deliveries at a local food bank, habitat for humanity &  homes  for Our Troops home builds, etc.   Or a regular job like that - the physical labour clears the static in my head for a while. Hang in there. 🍀

I'm done.

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It’s May of this year. The war in Ukraine had been going on for a while, but at least the COVID restrictions are lifted. You have a job, a house, a significant other, and pretty much all you ever wanted. A remote controlled telescope on a mountain, for example. Your official title is senior machine learning engineer. No children though, because if the apocalypse doesn’t...
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littlejohn22:
The adventure continues, stay strong and just keep swimming
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