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I love being forced to make huge decisions about my future....if I wasnt forced to make them I probably would not have a future. Making decsions are scary and exciting at the same time. I am not talking about what good butt jeans to wear out tonight or what to have for dinner kind of decisions....I am talking about the major ones we all make...
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lb:
i had to make a choice to leave a job tha ti loved but wasnt getting paid well to get one that is OK but makes me the money to support the ones i love...it was tough
kaleidoscopic:
funny you should ask that, because it's been life changing major decisions that have kept me offline and from talking to you these past few months...

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i had a heart problem, then my bf decided he couldn't live with me anymore, then i thought that meant i was a bad person and went crazy depressed and self destructive, had to quit my job and move back in with my dad, but now i've seen that the decision even though it was made the worst way possible (he sends me an email breakup after over 2 years together with no goodbye...) is good because he was dysfunctional and messing me up and making me feel shitty about myself for the past few years and he needs therapy and he has a violent temper. all things i couldn't see until i was away from him because i loved the rest of him too much to be objective.



but now i'm free. i can explore my options, get a job in another state that will hopefully lead to a good grad school, and i can love women now without feeling bad or guilty. before i was too scared to do these things because i was afraid of losing him. but now i see he wasn't worth having for the way he treated me. and i can love myself well and i don't have some guy and his judgements making me question whether he's right about me being bad or i'm right about me being good. i am good. he was just too selfish and immature to get it and thought i had to be something i wasn't to be good enough.

i hope that this summer is turning out to be everything you'd hope it would be! warm wishes and big hugs to you and your little guy kiss kiss kiss

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Where have I been? I have been lost...My head has been in the clouds...I have been so busyI cant keep up. I have been busting my ass working two jobs, trying to remodel a house and trying to be the perfect mommy...

I have put my two weeks notice in at my jobs. I am looking forward to a free and easy summer of being...
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hellstorm:
welcome back. definitely sounds like things have gotten hectic this summer for you. 3 full time jobs basically (your 2 jobs and being a mother)? yikers!

I do hope things work out for the summer. definitely sounds like you have lots of stuff planned out! that's for sure!

in comparison, mine is "being a jelly fish, just floating around". and work.
steve626:
what makes me wonderful?
You are the one able to take your summer off. wink

Mind if I ask how the weight loss is going?
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Another reason for me to not like men: They lose weight at a much faster rate than women. I have entered a dieting club at work...I dont have a lot of weight to lose...but I could drop a couple of lbs. My goal is 10. I have been on the exact same diet as everyone else and I have not lost a thing. Scott on...
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steve626:
Get your metabolism going. Eat breakfast and every few hours after that. Stay away from sugary stuff. Watch your fat intake. Eat lots of fiber. Exercise. Find a book from weight watchers and follow the points. You don't really have to join unless you lack discipline.
I lost a total of 60 pounds last year, found about 10 though. But I'm trying to get it back down for summer. So, maybe I'm an expert?
Oh, I also don't eat any mammals, eggs or milk. But lots of turkey, chicken, tuna and veggies. Some cheese too. Its part health, part social. I also have a combined cholesterol of 136 and BP of 110/70, I'll be 30 in a few months too.
Hope that helps.
What else is new?
truebeliever:
HELLO - MY NAME IS ANDREA ( TRUEBELIEVER ). I AM WRITTING TO YOU FOR HELP - I WILL BE VISITING N.Y CITY JULY 11 - 13 AND AM LOOKING FOR INTERESTING SG MEMBERS TO HANG OUT WITH AND SHOW ME AROUND. PLUS AN INFORMATION YOU CAN GIVE ME ON SHELTERS WOULD BE MOST HELPFUL.

THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME - ANDREA smile wink smile
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Has anyone else had to do the MDA jail thing??? If so was it fun or a huge pain in the ass. $600 bucks is a lot of bail to make. Wish me luck...it happens in the morning.

I had a great weekend! I went out in Syracuse on Friday night with an old but great friend...and we had a Rocken time. Saturday, I hung...
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sleeantagh:
How'd the MDA thing go?
pammy:
Thanks hon! I want a hula hooop! love
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Gun noises, fort building, root beer floats, pizza, constant play fighting and wrestling, thinking they are cool if they whisper boobs, shit and ass= Things 8 year old boys do on a Friday night.

Tonight my son is having a friend over and then have rented bad 80's Arnold Schwarzennegger movies. At first I thought I would get a lot of work done b/c I...
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billzilla:
I hope you had a great weekend! smile
__lex__:
glad to hear you had a great weekend....

i capped my weekend with two 2hour workouts on sunday....sore, bruised, and tired smile

other than that starting the new job tomorrow.....

ttyl
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POST MY BAIL FOR MDA

I dont know who signed me up for this...but I any help would be nice!!!!!!!!
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steve626:
Demonstrations went very good. I've been busting my ass for them too. 90% of the things went off as planned, I had a BZ Oscillation reaction that gave me issues though.
How are things with you? Get your duplex finished yet?

steve626:
Thank you!

I'm just in a funk tonight, I'll get over it in a few ... or rather after a few.
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Sweet Tea, delicate flowers, clean sheets, sleeping with my window open, people that answer the phone with excitement, watching my son play and talk to himself, drunk dialers (sometimes), jumping into cold water, the sun on my face, helping old ladies in stores, talking to old men in bars, having my feet rubbed, my wrist licked, rolling down hills, chewing on napkins after eating chocolate...
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pammy:
Oooh! Thanks! I think you just made my week! love
billzilla:
One word... soup! smile
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What a great day. I met all of my deadlines ealry and got to leave the wonderful world of advertising behind at a decent hour on a Thursday. I went to Lowes and purchsed new bricks to make a flower bed and lots of pretty flowers. I came home and went to work. I am all dirty now but my garden is looking so beautiful....
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hellstorm:
sounds like fun for you! I'm almost jealous, really. all the damn work I have for all my classes....want some?

I am glad to hear things are starting to wind down a little. having time to relax and do things around the house is always a good thing.

gardening, huh? did I ever mention that I've done some work landscaping? summer job. a friend of the family. most impressive site I worked on, the guy's landscaping was top 3 in Monroe County (commercial and private combined)....figured that his landscaping alone was at least $150,000..... eeek

keep up the work with the families....definitely know we in the Psych field can use all the help we can get!
billzilla:
Have a great weekend! smile
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My research grant is back in full swing. I am excited about my new program particapants and the next 8 weeks of fun. I have to make dinner for everyone the first night and I am a little nervous about that. My cooking expertise dialing a resturant and then putting it in a pretty dish and saying, "Look what I made". I wink when I...
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missdates:
Hey there. Thanks for the words in my journal, but hey there Missy, I've read some of your journals, and you are one busy lady yourself!! I'm sure with the research grant, you're going to be back in the hustle and bustle too!!!!

Thanks again, and best wishes to a good meal! kiss
graycen:
Congratulations on getting the grant! Your excitement is palpable! biggrin Hopefully you won't be too busy to update us on what's going on in your world...

Gray

P.S. They have DIET Rock Star...
Damn! I gave it up because of all the calories, but now I'll have to go and get me some!
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Feeling good and full of energy or at least I am pretending. I have a super busy week at least 100 hours. Next week is looking smooth and easy, so hopefully I will get to rest and restore. I am thinking I am going to take my son to the finger lakes and stay in a cabin on a lake and do some fishing, eat...
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blargenusa:
I love the story about dad. makes me feel at home.
My father is very much the same.
That trip with your son sounds so amazing too; i'm sure the two of you will have a blast.
And for the record, kayaking kicks ass.
If you're realy into the idea of financial freedom though, I may have an option.
let me know.
sleeantagh:
Hungry Mother State Park. smile