well, i've had enough. of my brain. i have no control over its mood swings anymore and it's driving me crazy. literally. i am not far from going to seek chemical help. i can live with being numb and a bit detatched if it means i don't swing from mediocre happiness to plunging depression and feeling everything in my life is shite on a regular basis. cos it's not and i don't really have any reason to feel this shit. blah blah blah. rant over...for now