So I havnt posted anything in a long time, been really depressed here lately, combination of many things really, my career falling apart and coming to an end (more just fear of the unknown on that one),all my friends moving on and leaving me, the feeling as if I just have nothing going for me in my life. I know everyone has their bad days and feel like shit every once and a while, but when it sticks with you for the better part of nearly 2 months like me, then I guess there really is something wrong, I just wake up everyday, look at myself in the mirror and think ,why bother?,I have nothing or no one to wake up and look forward to, most people are motivated by the fact that they are doing something worthwhile, or making money, or making money to provide for your family and that one special person in your life. I have none of that, I used to think the things I did were worth while, but Now realize they really aren't , I don't make much money at all, so no motivation there, and I definately don't have anyone to provide for or look forward to coming home to, so, why bother right? I don't know what i am really getting at here, no I am not suicidal, I'm just sick of life, or better put, sick of not having a life. I don't even know why I am posting this on here, mainly because I have no one to talk to and I guess it just feels a little better to get it off my chest in some way. Regardless, my self thrown pitty party is done for now. See ya again in prolly a couple more months SG land, thanks for reading.
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