twix_n_stix

ok so im on here alot... i just dont do anything... i guess im just nosey. i hate my job there all assholes... trying to tell me that i dont do my job but im doing far more than anyone in the office, and when i ask what they think i need to improve on they say they dont know... such bullshit. my car is finally dying and i have a jeep lined up... just because my friend will sell it cheap to me. i was at parker all weekend and decided that lots of beer and margaritas dont mix well with water, boats, jet skis, any water sports or casinos... i tend to do shit i woulnd normally do. i wish i could be at the river all the time, drink booze and see boobies all day. its been about 90 degrees here and at the river it was 125 so... when i got back... even now, im freezing!

i wish i had time to work on my car, and my own garage to do so in. i never relized how many things i wanted until now, not even big things, just small things, like i want to start eating healthier, and start working out again. i want to go swing dance and two step and ball room dance. i want to enjoy my time off work insted of getting calls all the time.

as i read back on all of this it completly sounds like im needy, i swear im not and i think thats why i just go with the flow, deal with my shitty ass job and take everyones shit. i wish i had the balls to stand up for what i belive in and feel is right. i guess im just a pussy, too scared to confront anyone.

oh well... what i really want is some damn money so i can get a few more tattoos and relive some of this stress. i love the hum of the needle. ah.... maybe ill pay mark mahoney a visit soon!