tunnel_vision

Well my nurse just called to tell me some of my test results from last Tuesdays bloodwork ... my hemoglobin read in the normal range for the first time in well over a year , my phosphorus level is down to a all time low. For some reason the lower my phosphorus level is , the shittier I feel ... there was a time several months ago when my doctor , nurse , and nutritionist told me I had the highest phosporus they had ever seen ... yet I felt better than ever at that time. Sadly enough this leaves me on the can't eat diet ... if it tastes good , I can't eat it ... so during the holiday season I want to hide in a dark corner as watching others eat and drink what I can't is hard for me.

The weather witches are speaking of snow for the next two days , I used to enjoy skiing , snowboarding , and blasting around on my snowmobiles ... I've developed Reynauds Phenomenom due to complications with a medication so these activities with be severly reduced this winter.

Tonight I start training again , I had taken ten days off after peaking too early last cycle ... the epogen is working great alongside my elevated growth horomone levels. My bodyfat levels are dropping steadily even though I have dropped my cardio from 90 minutes to 45 minutes ... and at times I often feel like the juggernaut during training sessions. In time I may be force to decide between two weight classes ... lightheavyweight and heavyweight as I may come in too flat at 198 pounds come contest time.