tronvillain

Well, that was a horrible night. We bump into drunk ex-boyfriend at the strip club, and to make a long story short, Erika and I end up having a "talk." It was so incredibly soap-opera: apparently she still has feelings for him, yet is incapable of looking me in the eye and telling me that she doesn't want me. Then I ended up talking to him for twenty-minutes, which involved him apologizing endlessly and saying that he didn't want to fight me (I wouldn't have minded smashing his face in, but I prefer not to fight too), and telling me that he loved her but wasn't good to her and that I should make her happy. ARG! By all right I should just drop the entire mess, even assuming she has made some sort of decision between us at this point, but I can't. It's too late, I already really like her, and considerations of what would be the best dating strategy go out the window.

FUCK! I HATE THIS! WE HAVEN"T EVEN MANAGED TO GO ONE ONE "REAL DATE" YET FOR GOD'S SAKE!

Perhaps I am a moron, or a romantic (is there a difference), but I am picking her up after work today and we'll see what's going on. *sigh*