UPANDATTAM!
Listening to mark sing. I wish I had more of his stuff. :/ His music makes me feel so many things at once. I would be happy to know he was working on his music again. I think the boy will not be happy until he does. I will have to guide him back to it I guess *smiles*
Why do I like to be in charge?
I'm really not sure. I do know that someone telling me what to do makes me feel angry. I've learned to control my anger as I've gotten older. I'm usually able to deflect someone's inept attempts to control me with a few well-placed verbal barbs.
I am honoured when someone gives me power. It's strange. The feeling is almost one of awe for my servant. That he or she would put their perfection (even if they don't see it yet) in my hands. To give me the power to guide them, to open experiences for them, to explore them. I'm in awe.
I'm just now learning that in some cases it isn't even a conscious giving. It just happens because it was meant to. One of the reasons I loved Secretary was because the two lovers were naturally pulled together by their desire and mutual need for each other.
I cannot abide to be restrained in any way. I love to restrain and restrict though, whether it be to bind someone physically or to tell them what they are permitted or not permitted to do. When my slave accepts my command and trusts me, the feeling is indescribable. I feel that we can accomplish anything together. I feel protective and nurturing. I feel powerful. I feel loved.
When my little one does something for me that shows he knows what makes me happy, that he knows what I require and desires to please me, those moments are pure delight.
And hell, let's face it, who doesn't love to hear someone beg for access to your charms
My little one is eloquent with his praise and worship. 
More later. I need to work out now.
Listening to mark sing. I wish I had more of his stuff. :/ His music makes me feel so many things at once. I would be happy to know he was working on his music again. I think the boy will not be happy until he does. I will have to guide him back to it I guess *smiles*
Why do I like to be in charge?
I'm really not sure. I do know that someone telling me what to do makes me feel angry. I've learned to control my anger as I've gotten older. I'm usually able to deflect someone's inept attempts to control me with a few well-placed verbal barbs.
I am honoured when someone gives me power. It's strange. The feeling is almost one of awe for my servant. That he or she would put their perfection (even if they don't see it yet) in my hands. To give me the power to guide them, to open experiences for them, to explore them. I'm in awe.
I'm just now learning that in some cases it isn't even a conscious giving. It just happens because it was meant to. One of the reasons I loved Secretary was because the two lovers were naturally pulled together by their desire and mutual need for each other.
I cannot abide to be restrained in any way. I love to restrain and restrict though, whether it be to bind someone physically or to tell them what they are permitted or not permitted to do. When my slave accepts my command and trusts me, the feeling is indescribable. I feel that we can accomplish anything together. I feel protective and nurturing. I feel powerful. I feel loved.
When my little one does something for me that shows he knows what makes me happy, that he knows what I require and desires to please me, those moments are pure delight.
And hell, let's face it, who doesn't love to hear someone beg for access to your charms
My little one is eloquent with his praise and worship.
More later. I need to work out now.
Anger? I used to channel my anger into dancing, and sublimate it under progressively sillier layers of chemicals. Now, it feels like it's finally dissolving or becoming something else. My anger could be the key to my creativity