tristane

Good for you, can you send some of that follow through over here to me?

Whenever I go visit the people I am going to see in 8 days I always leave with new resolve and determination to move forward with life and closer to my goals, then I come home and two days later I am right back into my old ways. So this time I am going to make myself answer the question you posed to me, I am going to add that to the talk I always have with myself on the way home,

I hae been getting more resolve in life, but there is always something that I allow to hold me back, that is something where I need to go in and re-wire my brain, do something in there to get stuff the way it should be for me to achieve everything I know I can and in turn take over the world, because really, isn't that always the ultimate goal.

I kept meaning to answer your question, but I keep posing it to myself and apparently need to ruminate on it further and further. Funny how that kindof deep brooding question has to be looked at continuosly, and thoroughly. I think one of the other problems I am facing within the question right now is that I know what I want to do, but I don't have the actual possibility in front of me. So basically I need to put the opprtunity in front of me so I can in turn figure out what would devestate me 20 years down the road, funny how that works.

Hehe... I like your list in this thread:

http://suicidegirls.com/groups/SlutPride/topics/372086/page2/


<3 SATC.

I wish I could go to Prauge

This post makes me laugh every time.

nah, not slutty, just unexpected, it's unexpected because I have unfortunately grown up in a country that represses itself much more than it should, so unexpected and refreshing that you come right out with what you're feeling and what you want in your no-no-bad parts.

Also kudos for keeping an open mind, you never know when you're going to find the hand that fits your glove, even in Prague.

I hear ya on expresing yourself more openly here than you might somwhere else, I to do that with my blogs on here, I used to do some on myspace too, but felt like there might be people that would judge me on there so to hell with that, here I don't fear anything like that at all.

Also, to your second note, I am on the biggest dryspell of my life, well since I lost my virginity that is, so you have no idea how badly I would love to have some soft warm flesh pressed up against me, to feel the warmth of a woman's breath right before our lips meet, and seeing where things progress as the heat increases between us, but alas you are right, I am a good boy so I won't tell you any of that.

Careful with that word "anything"

Darling, you don't know the half of it... you and I would be incendiary...

awesome.

Sometimes a bit of nice is just what we need.

xx

So basically you have them little yellow canary feathers hanging from your lip. Good for you.

I had a debit card ate once, it was a Saturday night, and I had no idea why so I went in on the following Monday to ask, I was told that because I had, had a check bounce because of debit usage they figured that the card shoud be blocked, he also told me that they should have contacted me about the issue, to which I kindly replied something along the lines "would have been nice to been contacted, then I could have saved your machine the trouble of eating my card". Turned out to be a blessing in disguise as I didn't un into any more porblems with non-sufficient funds, so I guess the bank was right, but don't tell them that.

If you find yourself a quality tattoo artist. Just give him/her your ideas. The beauty of someone with artistic talent is they can give you what you want and more!
Another site worth visiting is:

http://www.tattooartists.org/

Lots of free ideas...

Best bet is toss a coin for the decision, you'll know immediately if you're happy with the decision or not, and it will give you insight on what you think is really important. It might not be the best logical decision, but it's rare to regret following your heart over things like work (easy to regret following your heart over men or women though).

What I would say is that looking ahead at a year it seems like a very long time, but looking back over it, it seems to go so quickly, and the advantages may well help you much more in the long run.

I realise that is probably no help at all, but hang in there. Friends and things appear from the strangest places, no matter what you do.

And yes total arsehole, forget about him.

Sometimes all that meeting up does is give you that final chapter (I've been there myself), it's hardly ideal especially if the memories have been great, but it lets you move on.

It's the emptiness that it leaves that's so tough to contend with, but that's much easier to get over than a broken heart there is that silver lining.

wow, know the feeling...for real...