trishyrishyroo

A few weeks ago my boyfriend of 3 years, that I live with, told me he no longer wants to be in a relationship. I was totally shocked to hear this because I thought we were doing well. We spent the night crying together and talking about how he feels and the future.
Anyway, I am looking for a new place. I talked with two of my friends about moving out with them, but this week I decided against it. They both might need some more financial stability before doing that. I am a little excited to live alone. I found a cute place that I think is a little nicer than where I've been living with my ex, so that is positive. I have been obsessively planning to avoid dealing with my feelings though. I also have been keeping busy with my friends and family. I'm so scared that when I finally get all moved into my new place I'll just be sitting there alone and all of a sudden fall apart.
Anyway, I'll be a lot closer to my work (5 minutes away!) which means I get 2 more hours to my day which were previously spent commuting back and forth. I'm thinking the alone time will give me more space to focus on myself and goals. There is a silver lining in some ways. It's just very painful to go through something like this.
Oh and did I mention EXPENSIVE?! Moving costs are over $1000 for me! I don't have this kind of extra money right now. I have to ask my parents for a loan. Grrr! Every time I get the ability to save some money, something comes up like this. I guess that's just life.
I'll be moving at the end of October... bye bye Olympia!