i really should update.
my hours were cut in half about a week ago due to these bad financial times. they assume that this is only temporary for two months. meaning, in may i should start working full time commuting again. i'm worried that they are tanking since they are such a small company, but i hope everything is jump-started by this stressful situation and maybe i could possibly get a raise... i know... it's unlikely.
the problem is, i just started paying my school loans the month they cut me back and i was hoping for a raise back then. i really need some extra help. and even crappy jobs are hard to get right now!
i'm really worried.
another thing that has been stressing me out but is kinda a secret is that i have been into women more and more. i just thought i was a phase when i was younger. but now i'm in a committed relationship with a man and i really love him. really. but i find myself attracted to women more than men enough to worry me that my life is not right for me and i'm most worried that i could hurt him. i love him so much. and yes, i do still cum from a man... i don't know this is really hard on me right now... sorry but SG has always been a supportive outlet.
i wonder if any other bi or lesbian women have gone through a really tough transition...
god, i know that i sound like a douche!!!
my hours were cut in half about a week ago due to these bad financial times. they assume that this is only temporary for two months. meaning, in may i should start working full time commuting again. i'm worried that they are tanking since they are such a small company, but i hope everything is jump-started by this stressful situation and maybe i could possibly get a raise... i know... it's unlikely.
the problem is, i just started paying my school loans the month they cut me back and i was hoping for a raise back then. i really need some extra help. and even crappy jobs are hard to get right now!
i'm really worried.
another thing that has been stressing me out but is kinda a secret is that i have been into women more and more. i just thought i was a phase when i was younger. but now i'm in a committed relationship with a man and i really love him. really. but i find myself attracted to women more than men enough to worry me that my life is not right for me and i'm most worried that i could hurt him. i love him so much. and yes, i do still cum from a man... i don't know this is really hard on me right now... sorry but SG has always been a supportive outlet.
i wonder if any other bi or lesbian women have gone through a really tough transition...
god, i know that i sound like a douche!!!
You can likely get your student loans deferred for a few months. I had to do that when I left my job about a year after finishing college. Of course, that was over 10 years ago, so things may have changed. But, I suspect they'll still let you do a one-time temporary deferment due to financial difficulty. That's better for them than you defaulting.
Are you feeling like you can't talk to your guy about your feelings of attraction toward women? Hopefully he would understand that the way you feel isn't something you can control. Maybe if you emphasize how much you care about him and how important he is to you, he wouldn't feel as threatened. Does he know that you have some feelings of attraction to women, but not that they are stronger than your feelings toward men? Or does he have no idea?
I hope things get easier for you.
Take care,
Avalo