um, so there's this friend of mine who i really don't want to hang out with today, but i have to . . .
it makes me feel bad, but sometimes she just pisses me off because she does things to hurt my trust with her all the time. and i'm sick of her bs insecurities that make her do stupid things. i really wish she'd grow up and at least try to be a woman instead being so needy and dependent on other people to feel good about herself.
i guess i sort of need to rant.
urg . . . i guess i really just wish she'd stop hanging around my boyfriend, her ex. since she lives right next door to him and i live an hour away from him, it makes things really awkward for me. she puts me in the position to have to feel stressed out over something i shouldn't worry about. and anyway, she says she feels like crap for it afterward because they had a bad relationship . . . so why does she keep doing it?
i'm just really not looking forward to spending time with someone who expects me to keep ignoring how she's tearing away at my trust in her ability to have restraint with things that are bad for her.
eck, the girl's in AA and she doesn't seem to get how going back to him for positive reinforcement when she feels like crap is the same thing as a relapse into drugs for her. especially since he was directly connected to her drug abuse.
i just don't know how to put on a happy face when i feel this bitter toward her. it's going to suck.
ps i'm not proud of saying all of these things about her when she's my friend, i just need to vent. good thing this is anonymous enough that this can't hurt her . . .
it makes me feel bad, but sometimes she just pisses me off because she does things to hurt my trust with her all the time. and i'm sick of her bs insecurities that make her do stupid things. i really wish she'd grow up and at least try to be a woman instead being so needy and dependent on other people to feel good about herself.
i guess i sort of need to rant.
urg . . . i guess i really just wish she'd stop hanging around my boyfriend, her ex. since she lives right next door to him and i live an hour away from him, it makes things really awkward for me. she puts me in the position to have to feel stressed out over something i shouldn't worry about. and anyway, she says she feels like crap for it afterward because they had a bad relationship . . . so why does she keep doing it?
i'm just really not looking forward to spending time with someone who expects me to keep ignoring how she's tearing away at my trust in her ability to have restraint with things that are bad for her.
eck, the girl's in AA and she doesn't seem to get how going back to him for positive reinforcement when she feels like crap is the same thing as a relapse into drugs for her. especially since he was directly connected to her drug abuse.
i just don't know how to put on a happy face when i feel this bitter toward her. it's going to suck.
ps i'm not proud of saying all of these things about her when she's my friend, i just need to vent. good thing this is anonymous enough that this can't hurt her . . .
kscugrendel:
that's usually the kind of person you want to cut out of your life. then again, you have other worries. have you talked to your boyfriend about this?