so i am very happy that SG is such an awesome community . . . i feel much more comfortable here than i should!
on the flip side, i have been thinking weird thoughts lately about death . . . or about life? but either way, i feel like i'm running out of time and i'm only 21! i guess i'm just realizing how my body is deteriorating/rotting. i've also been worrying about how i'll one day just be suddenly 80 years old and all my life will have passed by and i won't be satisfied at all. because lately the days just go by and nothing is important to me. i don't know what to do because everyone just says "get a hobby" but that's not exactly easy for me . . . i hate how their suggestions suck and make me feel like they don't know me at all.
i just wish i was always surrounded by people doing things that make me feel alive.
i hate being alone. it's so boring.
fuck time.
but at least i have these beers and the internet??
on the flip side, i have been thinking weird thoughts lately about death . . . or about life? but either way, i feel like i'm running out of time and i'm only 21! i guess i'm just realizing how my body is deteriorating/rotting. i've also been worrying about how i'll one day just be suddenly 80 years old and all my life will have passed by and i won't be satisfied at all. because lately the days just go by and nothing is important to me. i don't know what to do because everyone just says "get a hobby" but that's not exactly easy for me . . . i hate how their suggestions suck and make me feel like they don't know me at all.
i just wish i was always surrounded by people doing things that make me feel alive.
i hate being alone. it's so boring.
fuck time.
but at least i have these beers and the internet??
i just wish i was always surrounded by people doing things that make me feel alive.i hate being alone. it's so boring
you just answered your own question. Find some place full of those people and get the fuck out of where you are.