trinityy

so there i was driving to work.. as i come to this trash can, i am staring at it just looking at it just thinking what if i just drove and hit that and go flying into the trees would i die instantly? or would i suffer.. probally suffer with my luck and probally live and deal with it.. its not like i want to die its just i always think about the what if this happened bullshit. i honestly love my life and wouldn't trade it. i have some cool friends and many goals i wish to accomplish. oh and teh best one yet! fucking telling my mom everything she doesn't wantto hear! god i will be video taping it and watching it night after night laughing my ass off as she cries b/c her "baby isn't who she planned for her baby to be" why s it that moms think they can PLAN there kids lives.. "my daughters gonna be "normal" and get married and have a good family" i think i can think for myself ad do what I want to do.. damnit i should e-mail her this site right now. that would so kick ass i am gonna video tape it when she find outs about this site and then i am gonna see if she wants a membership.. an then i would be packing my bags and laughing my ass off the whole time. i don't give a fuck if i am a bitch to her. she has hurt me since i was 15 not accepting me. well i am not gonna let her ruin my life and if she finds out anything then so be it, it was meant to happen. you figure everything happens for a reason. they don't do it to destroy you but to teach you and help you learn and grow. day after day you will grow and end up being more succesful. thank me for it one day haha j/k

okay so i was thinking of getting another piercing before i get my tattoo i want and i don't know what to get pierced i could get my other nipple pierced vertically but i kinda want something new=/

talking to morgan on the phone right now and i wish i was there at the show but i had to work.. damn work.. jeff just reminded me that i owe him many years of sex.. haha we were joking around at the ny show about something along the lines of him lighting my cigarette and i told him next time he was around we will get together, haha... then i violated him in the hallway and pinned him against the wall...

i have a cut in my finger and it hurts everytime i pick something up..

okay i have to go shove the 6g earrings in my ear now woohoo hahah PAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNN ... nite nite loves