god why the fuck am i about to cry. i have absolutely no reason. fuck hormones and being a girl. and having tears form behind my eyelids because i am MAD! did you know that's a natural response? females tear up when they get angry. shit.
well i like these kinds of days. i think tonite i want to go see losing sight, because i work with two of the guys in it, but alas it's in a church. i want to go do something by myself. without what you may consider a second half. i need space. i need time. i need me.
today i shall:
clean my room
STUDY, homework, projeckts, bla
send things to people
find the book no more prisons and read it
fix the antenna on the tv i NEVER watch so i can start watching the news again. i feel like i'm missing out. god damned media.
i went to sleep last nite longing for some kind of resolution. in the midst of talk he wanted to get under the covers. i knew nothing would happen after that. i shut out the lights and went to sleep. i woke up alone and headed to mothers . today is her birthday. i forgot her present , and didn't realize tiill i was a block away from her. i'm a moron sometimes, i swear. so what...i need i need i need and that seems to be alli think about ...i wonder about my own sense of self adequacy, and it just doesn't seem up to par. i have never been a victim to low self esteem-so something is just not right.
i feel like bjork was talking to me today. 'baby there's more to life than this, baby there's more to life.. ' i'd give anything to be her baby...
i think i write a lot more than anyone else...sigh.
xoxxxox
well i like these kinds of days. i think tonite i want to go see losing sight, because i work with two of the guys in it, but alas it's in a church. i want to go do something by myself. without what you may consider a second half. i need space. i need time. i need me.
today i shall:
clean my room
STUDY, homework, projeckts, bla
send things to people
find the book no more prisons and read it
fix the antenna on the tv i NEVER watch so i can start watching the news again. i feel like i'm missing out. god damned media.
i went to sleep last nite longing for some kind of resolution. in the midst of talk he wanted to get under the covers. i knew nothing would happen after that. i shut out the lights and went to sleep. i woke up alone and headed to mothers . today is her birthday. i forgot her present , and didn't realize tiill i was a block away from her. i'm a moron sometimes, i swear. so what...i need i need i need and that seems to be alli think about ...i wonder about my own sense of self adequacy, and it just doesn't seem up to par. i have never been a victim to low self esteem-so something is just not right.
i feel like bjork was talking to me today. 'baby there's more to life than this, baby there's more to life.. ' i'd give anything to be her baby...
i think i write a lot more than anyone else...sigh.
xoxxxox
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throatneedle:
You should move to NYC in August. I need a roomate
xksex:
hi