trauma

So I've been gone almost all this week. Nothing new.

Had to waltz into court yesterday after having last week off.

Looking forward to next week. No details, I'm not going to jinx it by admitting something good is happening, otherwise, if I admit to it, an equal amount of bad luck builds. Believe me, I had enough bad luck this past week.

Get my hair chopped today...adios.

Someone tell me love exists, I'm starting to fall back into the void that is the dark cloud of my mind.

If fate decides to be nice, I'll be in a new office somewhere in downtown LA doing a better job or keeping the one I have and drving the freaking Orange or red Metro bus somewhere. LA-Based SG should keep their eyes and ears open should they see me driving a bus or regulating one of the four trains in LA'S light rail and subway system...

TO DO LIST :
Buy a gift and some flowers...for who? No names, that one person who reads this may have a clue for whom.

A SONG:
"Emotional Times"
Taproot
Gift (2000)

life sucks sometimes, friendships turn to LIIIIIIES!!!!!,
a hatred in disguise it brings tears to my eyes,
i can see the truth from the neutral side in my mind,
confusion cripples me unto my element of control unsureness.

emotional times i'm just fine.

trauma's etched in my mind, i can see 'em all the time,
i've seen more than my share of pain and suffering,
i am just fine, respecting something more than nothing all the time,

emotional times I'm just fine
emotional times I'm just fine

and it's time, to move on. i have seen my faith sailing away,
and i have seen my faith's coming back to me, i can see it,
coming back to me, i can see it, i can taste it, i can live it cuz i'm just fine

emotional times I'm just fine
emotional times I'm just...FINE!!!!!!