trauma

I'm tired. I guess I'm missing class today. Why is it that people can step all over me and I can't say shit? The answer, cuz the people I work with are girls, and it's very hard for me to say no to a girl. Especially is she asks nicely. My boss asked me how the hell did I outbill everyone by miles last friday night. It was fucking luck. I was pissed off, and therefore, my fingers went to overdrive on the keyboard. Then the girl in charge last night tells me I might work 8 hours thursday cuz I was taking friday off. Turns out she was joking, and then she calls me telling me to relax and calm down, saying she knows me and how I'll react. How the fuck does she know me when she doesn't know me at all? If she took the time to get to know me better, maybe she wouldn't be telling me to calm the fuck down and not get angry. I wasn't at angry about it, what she told me hurt. People judge cuz I don't show much emotion at all. When they let me know about it, then I get hurt and angry. How the fuck can people be shallow? It's heartbreaking to see how society is arbitrarily setting rules for itself.