so unsure of myself. not good.
work hurts my brain.
pathetic.
not right.
need confidence. the reality kind of confidence though..
i think i worry way too much about what other people think. so much that sometimes i think i loose some of my identity.
i like work though, it feels like i beat the crap out of my brain
these thoughts aren't really connected, other than i'm having them sequentially.
i should just be an asshole, if that's who i am.
is feeling like i'm getting closer to finding out who i am just an illusion? it seems like i like to let myself believe i'm getting closer, but i don't think this is a road that ever ends. i'll have to find some other way of deriving satisfaction than being at the end of a road.
okay, i guess that last thought was somewhat more connected than just being sequential.
it's raining. i'm going to smoke.
come someone tell me that my wildest dreams will come true like pedro in napolean dynamite?
why do i want to delete everything after i've written it.. this sucks!
holy shit.. that wind is really howling.
work hurts my brain.
pathetic.
not right.
need confidence. the reality kind of confidence though..
i think i worry way too much about what other people think. so much that sometimes i think i loose some of my identity.
i like work though, it feels like i beat the crap out of my brain
these thoughts aren't really connected, other than i'm having them sequentially.
i should just be an asshole, if that's who i am.
is feeling like i'm getting closer to finding out who i am just an illusion? it seems like i like to let myself believe i'm getting closer, but i don't think this is a road that ever ends. i'll have to find some other way of deriving satisfaction than being at the end of a road.
okay, i guess that last thought was somewhat more connected than just being sequential.
it's raining. i'm going to smoke.
come someone tell me that my wildest dreams will come true like pedro in napolean dynamite?
why do i want to delete everything after i've written it.. this sucks!
holy shit.. that wind is really howling.
hahaha!
I don't know why, but I've felt like just walking up to someone and starting some fightclub style shit lately. I think its just the stress of knowing school is coming.
You're stressed out and bummed out about a lot of situations, but when you least want the help is probably when something is most important to you. So tell me whacha need and I'll help ya out.
BTW a bunch of people want to go out tonight if you feel like coming... I just dont know that I feel like going out at all.