trailor_slut

i tell you that i am OK.. i grin and smile. I am the shoulder you lean on. I am the go to girl. I am the one who you run to. I am the one who makes it better. I am the one who does what your wife wont. I am the one who never says no. I am the one who's pictures you masturbate to. I am the one you brag to your friends about. I am the one who you're thinking about when you're inside of her.

I am the one who stands in the rain. I am the one cowering in the dark. I am the one who hides in a bottle of rum. I am the one who's pain is cavernous. I am the one who uses sex as a drug. I am the one who enjoys physical pain. i am the one who wallows in self doubt. i am the one whom pity disgusts. I am the one void of trust. I am the one they warned you about.


Deny

Loathe

Cut

Feel

Bleed

rearrange

orgasm

...
i am still here. not exactly sure why. i am still here. way to tired to give a fuck anymore. i am still unsure of why. I am still that child deep down inside. i am still that person alone in the exam room. i am still looking forward to the end.


full of hate. bereft of care. unwilling to change. refusing to move forward. pushing you away. tomorrows one night stand, I'll lie to your face... because you wouldn't understand.

sick of broken promises. sick of everyone's lies. sick to fucking death of the labour in breathing.


till then. pass me the bottle. send me your nudes. more masturbation. something to pass the time till i find another screw.

judge me. i say...

FUCK YOU!

you couldn't be me. you don't have the balls. you cant out do me. you cant out fuck me. you cant out drink me. you cant live through one quarter of what i saw before i was 13.

eat me you cunt..

the end.