so i was all emo for a while.. now in 2 day ive gotton 2 job offers.. and i have to choose!! im not a looser after all!!lol.. buckle associate.. or manager at journeys,,, gaaa.. its hard but ill prolly go w journeys.. more money and better pay... on a side note.. wtf happened to chat? everyone good is gone.. im so sad.. i miss... Read More
feelin lost.. need to be found.. slippin away further and further.. no one listens.. no one sees.. cant keeps screaming.. the air is drowning me.. all i do is gurgle and gasp.. keep praying for an end.. a release.. why am i always more miserable when im with someone?
so, the boy is moving out of his gf's house tonight... 2 days early. So he says.. I'm a wreck.. my stomach is in knots and i have strange cramps... tho its no where near time for them... not sure what i feel.. except for that im a wreck. and to top it off.. i got drunk and spilled my guts last night to someone..... Read More
wow.. i just read a friends blog on here.. It's messed up that you get wrapped up in your own life and silly small problems; and think things are so horrible.. then you realize things could be so much worse and you feel like a total selfish asshole..
i tell you that i am OK.. i grin and smile. I am the shoulder you lean on. I am the go to girl. I am the one who you run to. I am the one who makes it better. I am the one who does what your wife wont. I am the one who never says no. I am the one who's pictures you... Read More
I hate thinking sometimes.. I've been kinda melocncholy as of late. Idk.. stupid shits been getting to me. Like.. I met this guy.. not naming names.. But, i really dug him.. then we finally met and shit wasnt the same. I miss how we were, before we met. Idk. it's dumb i guess. And he has moved on so quikly. He went from I love... Read More
oh i know.. im cool really.. just been allowing mysefl to think too much the last fwe days.. i just try to bury myself in my work.. but.. today.. especially this evening has been rough. i went in chat and saw him talkin botu this girl coming to see him ect. and how hes gonna tear it up. it was just a bit of a reality check. oh well.. his loss.. ima keep on being me.. and yea.. ive been spinnin both versions.. cash is god.. love his stuff
No need to change who you are for someone. You are who you are and thats what will make you special to the right person. Patience sucks, trust me, im in the same boat as you. Tomorrow is another day and another opportunity.
gaaa.. for reaLs.. 11 and a half hours with no lunch break.. my job sux somedays.. and i really just wanna go chill in chat.. but all the drama and ranting and raving is just as exaustin if not moreso than being at work.. guess ill veg out on xbox live..