I hate thinking sometimes.. I've been kinda melocncholy as of late. Idk.. stupid shits been getting to me. Like.. I met this guy.. not naming names.. But, i really dug him.. then we finally met and shit wasnt the same. I miss how we were, before we met. Idk. it's dumb i guess. And he has moved on so quikly. He went from I love you. To trying to fuck other girls in a matter of days pretty much. IDK.. it's not like i expected him to mourn me. But there has been ZERO mourning. Not one ounce. And he moves from girl to girl so quikly.. makes me feel stupid. Like wow. I guess i wasnt really that special to him after all. Oh well. Thats what i get for giving in to my girly side again. i swear.. ima stay in man mode.. get my drink on.. get my xbox on.. get my fuck on,.. and leave shit at that. it gets lonely.. but then its easier to knumb the real feelings... been spinnin this song all day.. all week really.. its cliche and a but emo.. but fuck.. i guess i am too. fuck.. idk.. maybe someday.. i'll fing the total paackafe.. a dude thats rad.. and funny.. and a smartass.. an asshole.. a sweetheart.. a lover.. a best freind.. a soulmate.. hahah.. i know.. tall order right? blehh.. ok.. back to self loathing
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trailor_slut:
oh i know.. im cool really.. just been allowing mysefl to think too much the last fwe days.. i just try to bury myself in my work.. but.. today.. especially this evening has been rough. i went in chat and saw him talkin botu this girl coming to see him ect. and how hes gonna tear it up. it was just a bit of a reality check. oh well.. his loss.. ima keep on being me.. and yea.. ive been spinnin both versions.. cash is god.. love his stuff
foundmyniche:
No need to change who you are for someone. You are who you are and thats what will make you special to the right person. Patience sucks, trust me, im in the same boat as you. Tomorrow is another day and another opportunity.
