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trying to compile a list of what I'll be taking when I move tomorrow. Well, technically, monday, but gotta prepare it all for tomorrow. I'm not taking much because:
a)The Riverdale interlude will only last two months, then I'll be moving again.
b)I don't want to take too much that will disrupt H&M. S., I could care less how much it disrupts her, but I don't want to make things even harder for H&M.
c)Apparently, my mother has been stockpiling stuff, because, as usual, I seem to need to be taken care of. No, no, that's not it, she's just concerned. I just with this hadn't happened again...

Have had many talks with Julia, good and hard. I want so badly to look her in the eyes, and tell her how much I am in love with her. But, I can't, because I think that would be too hard for her to deal with, and at the same time, I really can't be any kind of anything to anyone right now. She's devoted to her girl...all I can do is wait, and wait, and wait...and if anything ever happens, be there. She just has to stop fascinating me!

Vazaleen was fun in a bunch of ways (good friends, casual smooching, booze and dancing), but I personally didn't much enjoy the band, Les Georges Leningrad, so we went out to smoke a joint. Then, the later night music got pretty bad.
I'm also getting a bit annoyed by the whole scene there. Can't even get the boys to look me in the eye!