torai

You're right I think, we don't have a lot of time. I think we have the illusion of time because we think of how old the average person gets to be. The problem is, a lot of us waste our time. (myself included).

I don't feel that that any of us are pure, and unconditional love is best left up to God. This is not to say that you can't (had to edit that, cause I accidentally wrote can, which entirely changes the meaning of the sentance. oops.) find a good, or even great love, but from my own experiences, looking for happiness in another faulty human is (or has been for me) a recipe for failure. By all means though, finding a person that you can love and be loved by is by far one of the best things that can happen to us, and I spend a great deal of time and effort searching that out.

Ok, so I've probably opened the floodgates for a barrage of attacks on my person (if anyone wants to tell me I shouldn't bring that in here or that they think I am closed minded, please do so in my own journal, rather than muddying up Kanmis). I am just trying to portray what works for me, and this is not to say that everyone needs to agree with me, or that I hate everyone who doesn't. I don't hate anybody, and I believe in tolerance and love.

Anyways, for me, my faith is a means of not having to worry about all these things. (which is not to say that I am immune to it, in fact I worry pretty often) but this allows me to take a step back and look at the big picture and decide that, whatever happens to me in this life, I've got that unconditional love, and someone who is there to help, and all the time in the world. Now, this doesn't make me better than anyone else (in fact, I'm probably worse than a lot), and it isn't an excuse to do whatever the hell I want.

Now in the end, if it turns out that I'm wrong, well, then so be it, but at least I've tried to do what's right, and hopefully I've made someone elses life a little better in the process. Also I'm not saying that you or anyone else needs to agree with me, I'm just saying that this gets me by, makes me happy, and keeps me from going on a suicide killing spree

[Edited on Dec 15, 2004 6:47PM]

No answers to your questions here, I just like what you wrote. tks