Here lately, I have been feeling really disoriented. I feel like I am not able to connect with anyone and that I am alone. I've also been doubting myself when it comes to my appearance. All I ever do is work and go home. I'm by no means a mean person, I may come off that way, but I'm friendly and outgoing. I wish I knew what to do to lift my spirits just seems like everything in my life isn't going right (the way I want) . I suffer from self doubt A LOT. I like to be in control, I like to know what's next. Not being able to know what my future holds scares me.
I love this community and what it stands for, I love all the positive attitudes and how everyone is just so encouraging. I see a lot of you writing about "how SG has changed your life". Personally SG has lifted me up and torn me down. I love all the feedback and the love I receive, but I also find myself feeling envious of so many beautiful ladies. Overall positive note, I believe that SG is giving me the opportunity to express myself through pictures and interactions with such awesome people all around the world (You guys rocks!)
I have never been one to hold back and give up, but for several months now that seems like all I ever want to do. I've been through so many ups and downs in life, all I want is some stability. I want to make new friends, explore your minds and go on adventures to find myself. FUN; I need more of that in my life!
