Man am I having a bad day today.
I woke up this morning late for class. I don't know why my bf didn't wake me up. I guess it was because he was busy screaming obsenities at our elderly, toothless neighbors for their friends parking behind me in our driveway. I don't know why he bothered asking them to move if he didn't plan on waking me up
It's not as if he doesn't know what time I wake up or leave for class. Grrr.
So I go to class and it was ridiculous. Don't get me wrong. I LOVE the class. It's amazing. But today we were studying Taoism (Daoism) and the instructor either didn't understand it himself or was just not good at relaying his ideas today.
Then, I get home and apologize to my neighbors for my honey's assholeness. What do I get? His daughter is a total bitch to me.
Then my grandfather calls asking me why my bf hasn't paid him back for a small loan that he gave him. My bf had discussed this topic with him not two weeks ago right in front of me and they worked it out quite amicably. My grandfather had no memory of this and was being really mean about it. And then he interupts me mid-sentence, says he doesn't want to discuss it anymore and hangs up on me. So here I am, torn between being really sad that my grandfather is losing his memory and I know he feels like shit (he's got bladder cancer) and really hurt that he is taking it out on me.
I feel like a really shitty person for not being able to just suck it up and be an adult. I just don't know how to respond to him when he's like this. The "grampa" I know is a tender old man who had a huge part in raising me.
Hopefully, I can get over myself and just be there for him, while taking anything he throws my way.
Sorry for the rant.
I woke up this morning late for class. I don't know why my bf didn't wake me up. I guess it was because he was busy screaming obsenities at our elderly, toothless neighbors for their friends parking behind me in our driveway. I don't know why he bothered asking them to move if he didn't plan on waking me up
It's not as if he doesn't know what time I wake up or leave for class. Grrr.
So I go to class and it was ridiculous. Don't get me wrong. I LOVE the class. It's amazing. But today we were studying Taoism (Daoism) and the instructor either didn't understand it himself or was just not good at relaying his ideas today.
Then, I get home and apologize to my neighbors for my honey's assholeness. What do I get? His daughter is a total bitch to me.
Then my grandfather calls asking me why my bf hasn't paid him back for a small loan that he gave him. My bf had discussed this topic with him not two weeks ago right in front of me and they worked it out quite amicably. My grandfather had no memory of this and was being really mean about it. And then he interupts me mid-sentence, says he doesn't want to discuss it anymore and hangs up on me. So here I am, torn between being really sad that my grandfather is losing his memory and I know he feels like shit (he's got bladder cancer) and really hurt that he is taking it out on me.
I feel like a really shitty person for not being able to just suck it up and be an adult. I just don't know how to respond to him when he's like this. The "grampa" I know is a tender old man who had a huge part in raising me.
Hopefully, I can get over myself and just be there for him, while taking anything he throws my way.
Sorry for the rant.
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also, if you feel bummed and want to see a movie about someone way more bummed than you, rent fasbinder's "fox and his friends." wow. y'll feel like like however many billions of bucks the 05 war budget's gonna be.
yr neighbors might be a drag, but believe me--few top my neighbor. oh....... i could tell some stories.
It was nice of you to apologize to your neighbors for your bf's tirade of obsenities. Don't worry about the bitchy daughter, you proved you were better than her just by going over there.
And hey, sometimes we boys don't wake you up because you look so beautiful sleeping, and we're not quite ready to give you up to everyone else for the rest of the day yet.
Oh, glad you liked my photoset.
[Edited on May 24, 2004 11:18PM]