I've currently been inside my house since March 10th.
I thought during lockdown I'd get super productive and want to be really social but truth is, it's gone the other way. I have been productive, but in ways like taking care of my animals, and cleaning my spaces, and taking care of my skin and trying to just BREATHE, but where content is concerned, I feel like my river has run dry. I'm one of the 'vulnerable' people during this time that shouldn't leave their house at all, and so is my dad. Being inside with a family member is always nice as it means you have eachother but it's also a constant reminder to me that something really awful is happening and I'm powerless against it.
I can't make new content as I'm never alone and with my mind how it is, I feel like it wouldn't turn out that great anyway. I'm not trying to moan, I'm better off than most and I know that, but what I'm trying to say is.. in this time, if you don't feel productive, or can't do what you thought you could, or maybe just want to rest, that's A OK. There's so much going on right now that it's a normal reaction for you to feel ever so slightly traumatised, and you are allowed to be kind to yourself and do what it takes to feel good, whether thats reading a book or laying down or doing your makeup just to take it off again... anything is allowed and there are no rules in this time period. Staying safe and staying ALIVE is enough.
I've turned my notifs off for all my social media but I am still around and checking when I feel I can handle it, I'm trying to just stay sane at this moment and not be too hard on myself for not doing what others can
Love you all and hope you are safe and healthy,
Tommy
xxx
